Shit storm is exactly right

I am still detaching and its been 18 months
Of no contact. This stuff takes time, therapy
And Support groups help a great deal.

Many people Need meds to get over the
hump. There were many in my divorce care
That were numbed out and couldn't even
Get angry. That is one emotion i had loads
of Along with my rage.

Let yourself grieve your losses, you will survive
This, the healing starts after the divorce is Over.
Thats not simple and easy either. HUGS

I started meds 12/22. Doctor says it takes two to three weeks to kick in. Yes the anger is diminishing but the hurt is still there. We were raising children together for 15 years. I can't understand how he can walk away from our family.

I am very thankful for no children now.

The best thing is to Keep working on
yourself and try to heal and honor your
Grief. Grieving is natures way of healing.

It took a lot of work to diminish my rage,
I still have a lot of healthy anger.

I kept beating every bush i could find to
Help myself. It generally takes 3 year to
normalize after divorce. HUGS

Unfortunately a shit storm is a good way to put it. I've been putting up with it for months and will continue even after the divorce is finalized. It is hard to believe that the person you built a life together with just walks away without the blink of an eye as if you were nothing to them. The kids are the tough part because they are the innocent ones and don't deserve any of the crap they are and will go through. As tough as it is you need to be there for them. I've been down the same road and have contemplated the same thing. This is not easy each day is a challenge but just get thru the next second, next minute, next hour. You have to keep breathing. See a therapist if you have see a couple to you find one you are comfortable with. Sometimes it just helps to talk to someone. I have my kids seeing a therapist and I am seeing a therapist. Not that it is what I thought I would be doing at this stage in my life. But I do it for my kids. Hang in there.

Basnime you are stronger then you know. Draw strength from knowing your kids depend on you until you find it within you. Also there is no right or wrong way to do this. If u need time take the time. I feel like I'm lying to myself about my husband. I won't call him STBX because I still want to save my marriage. You are not alone dear and we will all survive this mess.

You all have no idea how much your support means to me. I keep living. Through this pain I keep living.

The abandonment is brutal to deal with. Do NOT let his actions dictate your well being. Positive affirmations when you wake up, when you go to bed and many times during the day. "Better and better every day". Living with the betrayal, the lies, rhe callousness of our ex or STBX, is tough terrain to navigate, but I believe 100% that people like you and me are going to be so much happier than those who
Walked out on us if we choose to tackle the tough terrain in front of us.