Evey single day of my life Heave... I have asked that same question. A good friend told me it wasn't what I did but that God/fate/the powers that be knew I was strong enough to handle it. Hang in there keep your chin up they don't stay down for long. (((hugs)))

I feel like this all the time. If there is any thing to the concept of reincarnation, I must have been Hitler in a past life to deserve all of this crap!

Heave I was just talking yesterday to someone about this. I changed jobs from one I loved to one I don't care for very much, and went through reconciliation only to have my marriage end anyway, and me in a worse position professionally and finacially. I was questioning why God let this happen. It seems unfair at times, but there is a reason. Something good will come of this, you'll see then you'll understand.

I believe some of us have little things that go wrong all the time. Some of us have been blessed. We had wonderful lives. Every 20 years or so life slams us. That's me.

I didn't do anything wrong. I think God has bigger plans for me.

Yes I have Heave felt like that before, but to be honest then I look at so many others out there that are so much more unfortunate than myself. Kids that won't get Christmas presents this year becuase their parents don't have the money or just lost their job. Parents at Childrens Memorial hospital dealing with their childrens illness, the homeless, our Soliders in Iraq not being with their famalies...many others. It makes me reflect on what and all I have to be thankful for. I always remember even though my life has hard times, the good outweigh them and for that I'm truly blessed. Hang in there things will get better.

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periodically, at certain points in my life, yep, sure.

The thing is, we really have no choice but to pick ourselves up, dust ourselves off, and push forward. Once we do and are in a better place and can look back from a different vantage point, we usually see that had X not happened then Y wouldn't have happened which means I wouldn't be standing here at Z.... and damn, Z's a pretty great place to be!

It's all a cycle and each time, if we're lucky and aware, we learn and grow. I know it sucks right now and for that I really am sorry and feel your pain - but have faith that the tide WILL change. This, too, shall pass.

Life builds up and tears down and then starts over again. It's all about entropy. :-)

I have questioned this, too. I know GOD must have something good in store for me or I wouldn't be here.

i did in the beginning alot!

but now, i'm trying to accept it all as lessons that will make me stronger.

altho have to admit after all this what the hell is ahead of me if i'm suppose to learn lessons from this..

I used to wonder why shit happened to me as well up until i was in the war. Just getting a totally different perspective on everything you thought you knew and having everything you love stripped away from you and you're just thrust into a combat zone with no certainty as to whether or not you're going to be alive tomorrow. My point being is just that when i thought i had so much shit happening to me and then after a certain situation is thrust upon us, it just seems to make everything else from that point on seem not quite so insurmountable.
ESPECIALLY true with the times today with so many out of work and the economy being so bad.

I'm a firm believer in "what goes around, comes around" and man, I must have done some crappy things, cuz it sure is comming around!

yeah, but it comes in phases

I keep the following posted on my wall in the event I start feeling sorry for myself.


Surrender comes when you no longer ask "why is this happenning to me?"

Even within the seemingly most unacceptable and painful situations is concealed a deeper good, and within every disaster is contained a seed of grace.

Throughout history, there have bee women and men who, in the face of great loss, illness, imprisonment, or impending death, accepted the seemingly unacceptable and thus found the peace that passeth all understanding.

Acceptance of the unacceptable is the greatest source of grace in this world.

I try not to ponder on whats gone wrong in my life, more be thankful for everything thats gone right. I have been seriously ill this year, lost a baby and had the love of my life leave me. But, I have the most wonderful son in the world, I am getting a free boob job next year, and I have more money cos the asshole who was spending it all, is gone! I really do believe that everything happens for a reason, and I choose to take the positive road... Either that or Im insane and my life is shit!

YUP.......I wondered what I did in a past life to deserve these things that have happened.

I was just thinking this morning on my drive to work about how really awful some parts of my life have been (and still are). I don't believe they're punishments... just consequences of decisions I've made. And not all of them were bad decisions, or even important decisions.

It's scary to know that simply answering "ok" to a friends suggestion to go to the lake one Saturday afternoon in 1980 could set off a chain of events that ended up defining my dreary life.