Your problem is that your too "nice" probalby spend time looking inside yourself to see what you can change to make things better. Which is a very nice thing to do, a self improvemnt gift to give your better self to someone.
please realize that be being such a person that you are worth so much.
The only shame is that your husband is at best a blind fool not to see you as you are....a person willing, yearning to grow.
WOW you are special, as creations of God we are called to grow. You are hearing the call and acting on it.
Even if you get nothing that you can see you are spreading sunshine somehow in this world.
If your husband has no use for sunshine, Id be worried for him.
You please shine on

Thanks KAW

-stillbitterjaded: OMg I hate that too ! It will take time hahaha, but I guess all those people that tell us that are right, unfortunately the only way we will know if it is true is.... With time! I also think that perhaps I miss the little things he was useful for.

-brokennotforgood: Wow, your words was just what I needed! I remember when I found out he had left,
I told him he will regret it because he had someone thg was willing to go to the end of the world for him. Thank you for your kind words, they brought me to tears...

Well... I didn't read your story... He cheated, you hit him... that's two counts of ultimate disrespect. I think you two are better off apart, and him texting you, to be blunt, he probably ran out of bitches to bang, or is having issues with whoever he cheated with, and is turning to the backup play... which is... I can't have what I want, so since you'll do in a pinch, I will tell you I love you and miss you. I could be completely off base, but that's how I'd play it, when I played it.

You recognize that he is incapable of caring, but think YOURE the one in the wrong?

Do you see your backwards logic on that one? :P

He played you. He was in the wrong and he twisted it around so that you felt like the one in the wrong. He is playing games with you and so is she. He is manipulating you. You deserve much better.
You are not in the wrong, he is tricking you into thinking that. He wrote I love you to give some more crumbs of hope.
Sorry you are going through this. Been there.

Thank you everyone for your replies.

As much as everything points to where it is his fault... He has managed to make it "him leaving me" because something is wrong with me... Yet when he cheated, I stayed and gave him a chance to prove himaeld

Thats what manipulators do. They turn it around so they dont have to feel guilty or admit they did something wrong. Hes borderline delusional.
People like that create their own versions of the world so they dont have to deal with reality. Theyre weak and basically insane.

A constable showed up at my place looking to arrest me because I was mistaken for my ex sister in law. I told the constable where she could be found and politely advised the Ex he may want to inform her.
They BOTH jumped all over me - called me names and told me they have no respect for me. That I'm a piece of sh*t for doing that and yadda yadda. They didnt want to deal with the reality that she did something illegal and couldnt keep it quiet. She was going to get arrested (and was probably embarrassed I found out about it). So they displace the blame to make themselves feel better.

Your Ex may not be that extreme, but you should feel bad for him that his perception of reality is so grossly skewed.
Dont let someone like that get into your head, his opinion of the events is worthless because its all in his head. YOU know the truth.

Shine- thanks for your words. I remember reading your story and it sounded so crazy. At the end of the day.. And I may say it over and over again...I think what has been the worst for me is that, not for 1 second has he approached me in the past two months with any sort of apology.

Don't feel bad about the lack of apology J. Mine apologized and sounded sincere but later recanted the whole thing saying he was off his meds and wasn't thinking clearly when he wrote the apology. I should have just told him to shove it.

I had a very similar experience with my now ex. You are NOT in the wrong!! If he dosn't feel like a man, thats HIS problem, not yours. My ex said the same thing to me, he still loves me and cares about me and thinks about me all the time. He even went so far as to say he'd even think about dating me again in the future. DO NOT FALL FOR IT! You deserve some one that will spend time with you, cherish you, respect you and would want to work on the relationship.

KAW- that just sounds nuts

Blixxa- it's terrible. Mine said that too... He said ... You never know maybe in the future we will get another chance at this... Seriously?!

J, it sounds like he wants to keep you on the back burner, just in case no one else wants him :)

Hi KAW. You're right... It said " I still love you and miss you... But this is what I want" not sure how to take that

This is not love. It's manipulation. He is selfish and self serving and you don't derserve that.
Keep on your path, it's been put infront of you for a reason. You owe it to yourself to see what's at the end of it!!

Good luck and stay strong!!!! You can do it. You are worth an amazing person that cares about you. You don't have to settle for someone that demands you don't feel!!

Sunshine :) thank you for your kind words. Truly has lifted my spirit :)