On a serious note....I have several journals that are locked. They are my letters to the lost loves. I have it out in them. I pour all my raw emotions into those written words. As I am beginning a process to transfer my journals into a Word doc., I read those locked journals and realize that letting go was the best thing. I had sent one but received no response which stung a bit but, the lack of response was enough to carry on but, I had no regrets. None.

So, write, give, don't give...whatever you do, your hand is extending your inner struggles onto the paper. You are closer to making a decision than you realize. We will be here for you.

Bullshit.

MoMo wrote them.

I gave H ALL my letters. I didn't hold back.

The good - the bad - the ugly.

Since I felt he left, I didn't want him to skip away into la la land (with my just ripped out heart in hand) without putting in my two cents.

There is a transformation that one sees.
I started with:
- I WILL KILL YOU AND HER
moved on to:
- THIS HURTS BECAUSE
to finally:
- I WILL SURVIVE, GOODBYE, I ALWAYS LOVED YOU

If you're not giving her the letters, perhaps it's because you're thinking of what the consequences could be. You're not fully prepared for her to respond in kind.

It's easier to write it down than say it out loud. Maybe the bitterness is on your part because you're angry at yourself for not being brave enough to let it all out to her. Always keeping the peace doesn't necessarily give you peace within.

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Ahh, I remember when I wrote a six page letter to my ex-wife.

She threw it right back in my face.

I have done that too. So many letters in my personal journals. I sent the last one to my Ex
@Soon. My Ex did the same thing. But It still gave me some clarity.

You know...i totally forgot how many times i wrote out letters, either during my relationship or when we were broken up. Maybe i am starting to block things out? Anyway...i wrote out so much! There were so many things i wanted to tell him that i never did. Yeah..those were the days. Not to say i never ended up writing him some hard stuff. You just have to have low expectations, to say the least!

It's good you are putting it out there and venting. I hope it's helping R.