I previously wrote about my breakup from my toxic ex. We broke up 2 weeks ago and Im not doing well at all. I am so incredibly lonely. I have no friends. All of my friends were his friends and I have no family except my children. He has a huge family and lots of friends to get him through this and I have none. One of my best friends that was his best friend hasn't talked to me in a while. Has been on Facebook but ignored my message even though he said he'd always stil be my friend. So I know his loyalty is with my ex even though he treated me like crap. My exes family says they support me and Im still a part of the family but I don't think thats really true. His mom messages from time to time but thats it. The holidays are coming up and Im spending Thanksgiving alone cause my kids are with my ex husband, not my ex boyfriend. I'm so utterly alone and today I just wanted to die. Its really hard for me to make friends. I'm very introverted and socially awkward. I just can't imagine a life being alone like this. Then he messaged me the other day telling me he missed me and that he wants me to know hes sorry how it ended and he still loves and cares for me. I broke up with him cause of his drinking problem and a million different reasons. He just wasnt very respectful to me. His message set me off. Not sure why he did except for him to find comfort from me during all of this. I find it rather selfish of him cause it just caused me lots of pain. I never message him unless he reached out first. How do I go on from this alone? He has a huge family. I have absolultey no one. Im so alone.