So the new obsessive though is that there was or is somebody else .  Idk why I should care about that bc it doesn’t change anything about the situation . I asked him candidly to his face on separate occasions and he stated no ... but now I am thinking about and seeing were there any signs was I just naive and oblivious I mean he lied apparently for three years about using cocaine so what else could he have lied about . Idk what’s I am suppose to do at this point we’ve had no contact for roughly 2 weeks and I do not want to reach out to him because I feel that is what he is expecting me to do. I feel whatever he has to say is only going to make me feel worst about myself abou the situation but I feel in limbo and don’t understand if he’s the one who wanted out then why do I have to make a move he seems perfectly content just relaxing and do his own thing. I constsntly  think about him and I doubt I am even a mere though in his brain .. feel like I meant nothing to him . I can’t do this anymore I am so upset so hurt so confused and i just want it to all go away .