Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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Where did I go?

HannaHana
HannaHana
How is it that the person I had been for over 25 years just disappeared? That fun-loving, caring happy person is gone. Overcome with severe depression and mixed episodes, daily panic attacks and hate.

Destroyed relationships, there's no one left that gives a flying fuck. All of those "If you ever need anything..." was all a lie.

Where did I go? And...am I ever going to come back?

I've posted before, but I just can't seem to accept that this 'new me' is going to be me forever.

Will I be this way forever?
HannaHana
HannaHana
Posted that be4 you said I had 'bollocks' but please don't make humor out of my despair.
deleted_user
deleted_user
#30...cool, Hannah x
deleted_user
deleted_user
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Sorry, I can't reply.

We have humoUr in the UK though.

.... and Bollocks.

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HannaHana
HannaHana
Good for you humoUrous UKers. Us Americans have trouble finding humOr when life sucks.
HannaHana
HannaHana
see....it lit up green when it was spelled right.
deleted_user
deleted_user
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Smile :-)





See.





I knew you could.







:-)

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HannaHana
HannaHana
Bollocks.
deleted_user
deleted_user
No.It's only humour when you don't preach it as if you are funny.
Plenty people here know the joke has died many replies back.
Otherwise yr like Jim Davidson and you assume you are funny.
Now that's ALL that I laughed at.

Hanna has been through a lot.
In UK it's seen as rinsing the joke too much.
deleted_user
deleted_user
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A convert to Bollockism.

Excellent.

Bollocks.

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HannaHana
HannaHana
Thanks Pluck.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Hanna ..I feel the same way all the time , untill I talk to other people.. and find that EVERONE is on the crespt of a breakdown ..if you've had one or 2 it's just fine. My best friend lost her house and her child because her boyfriend was selling drugs from the house ..she lost the house and the child. Foster care. My other friend has been going from bed to bed to bed to find "True Love" ..3 kids ..3 fathers. My lupus doctor gave me the news last week that If I ever had a child I would certainly share my lupus and possibly bipolar... I could die easily trying to have a child. And the dream I had as a child thinking about all the things I should be doing are gone..no house ..no bunch of cars so we wouldent have one and I at least could have some freedom ..nothing is what it was supposed to be . I got onto SSDI when I was 23 ..from the age of 19 thru 22 I was a coke addict. I ruined my body and mind from all that shit ..all you can try to do is never stop going forward ..never look back. Get your meds regulated and try to get where you want to be . Make it a goal ..to try to be YOU again ..Love you pumkin
deleted_user
deleted_user
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I can cook, Jim Davidson can't.

I have bollocks two.

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HannaHana
HannaHana
Thanks KD...yeah, I know I don't have it as bad as some people, but shit still sucks ass.
HannaHana
HannaHana
This is a dead post. Thanks to those who replied...even all the bollocks.
deleted_user
deleted_user
*throws poo at Hanna* Now thats shitty !!! Just try to smile today ..start makeing your plan ..pen and paper.. sit down and brain storm ..dont let this depression beat you up .you got alot of stuff that needs to be done ..get YOU back
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