You made a mistake, we all do. Go to your pdoc, get back on meds, it seems the only option. xo

Thank you. It was a mistake and now I'm a mess. I know I'm not going to sleep again tonight.

charmingd,

I'm sorry that you're going through this. I have been there more than once, at least until I found the right meds.

I hope you don't have to much trouble getting back on meds. It sounds like you are dealing with some mania.

I wish you all the best.

I'm sorry, I think I may have sounded "cold" with my response. I didn't mean to. I know how easy it is to get wrapped up in "feeling better" and thinking we can do without meds. You are not alone and many of us have made the same mistake. Sometimes we have to make those mistakes to realize how important our meds are to our stability. Hopefully your doc can help you get back to the stability you once had. xo

I have gone off my meds before and had a hard time finding ones that work again. Your last combo may not work the second time. It is never really a good idea to go without meds without a pdoc guiding you. I hope you feel better soon!

This can be very painful time , I have done it several times myself. It was very dark moments for me and It may seem almost impossible to call the pdoc.

Don't be hard on yourself, my last time I had to have someone call and make the appointment for me. It was overwhelming for me just to call the pdoc office.

Please don't feel guilty like I did it happens to the best of us . Just do the best you can. Do what ever it takes to get your meds and things will turn around for you .

God Speed to You.

I have done this many times - feeling great, go off meds, crash. The last time I did this I ended up in the hospital (voluntarily) for two months to get me stable on meds.

When I crashed off meds, I realized was that even when my mind is telling me that I am depressed and don't want to do anything, I have to push on. Go see you doc and be honest and get back up on those meds.

There is no cure for bipolar and it is easy to think we are "cured" when we are at a good level of meds and feeling great and normal.

Please don't beat yourself up over this and try to be kind and compassionate with yourself. Talk to yourself like you would talk to a friend going through the same thing. Yes, you feel like a mess right now but there is hope. You have experienced goodness mentally on meds and you can do it again!

We have all been there and are here to support you. There is no shame in feeling like you can and want to be "normal" without the use of meds. Once you get back on meds, even before they start working again, you will feel better knowing that your safety net is back in place.

I agree...It's easy to think that you are "better" and just stop taking meds. I came off of mine back in July & after my latest spiral decided to start taking them again. It really doesn't take long to realize that I shouldn't have stopped in the first place. Don't beat yourself up about it though, it seems like something we've all done before (I KNOW I have!). Just pick yourself up, make the call, get back on them and hang in there!! (((HUGS)))

Ummm yeah! I have done that a few times and this last time I let it slide for 2-3 years and found myself divorced and remarried....Definitely take your meds---your mind can do a number on you, it will wreak havoc and cause nothing but destruction. The depression is awful when all you see is black.

Time to get back on track get back on your meds. Just keep pushing forward, don't let your mind drag you down. I fight those demons daily even with medication so I remember all to well what it was like non-medicated. Now the thought of not taking them scares the heck out of me!

Big hugs!!

I have run out of my meds before due to their cost and it was a miserable experience. Sounds like you need to get back to your pdoc and get back on some medication. You sound a bit manic. wishing you the best.

You will get better! Yes this sucks, hold on - and learn, lazy not taking meds, is not worth it...

((((BIG HUG)))))

Probably be a good idea to start those meds again....

Deff have been there! I'm actually there right now... my doctor says I cant take any meds until I see a psychiatrist on the 30th. I wish I could thought because I am miserable! It's a challenge just getting to work and staying there everyday. Racing thoughts make you question whats real and whats not.

Fresh air and music help me at least a little bit to get me out of the funk even for just an hour. And an hour out of that state of mind can do you wonders!! You might have to force yourself, but it's worth it :)