hugs and good thoughts tats. ((((tats))))

the only really important thing that truly matters is that you love them. and it's obvious you do. :)

Awww...((((Hugs))))

I do this exact thing to myself more than I care to admit, the mourning...the crying....the guilt. But a great friend pointed me in a different direction with my thoughts as to my son's.

For whatever reason, this is a necessary growing pain in life for them too...in THEIR journey. It doesn't teach them weakness and sorrow. It teaches them strength and willingness and acceptance...and perseverance...all great qualities in great people. So think of it that way, maybe, and know that it is ok to let go and let it out....

Sending you love and prayers. xo

Mojo is right too in that everything really all comes back to love.

Oh sweatheart, im so so very sorry you are feeling like this. Know that you are not alone. You are an incredible women & a fabulous mom, tears or no tears , illnesses or no illnesses, you truly are. Your boys know its an illness, & they know the tears arnt because of them, & thats important. You are doing great, even if you dont see it.
Monaleesa is right, trust in that.
I love you, your my sista
HUGE hugs
dee

Aww thanks so much to all of you, your helpful in more ways than I can express. (((big group hug)))

monaleesa, thanks so much for opening my mind to another way of looking at things.....I'll never forget it!!

at least your son's care about you.

But I agree, I'm the same way, I try to hide my true emotions and suffering, because I'm trying to protect my loved ones from suffering as well.

It's still hard for me to know when I should lean on some one and when that leaning turns into burdening. I try to shoulder every thing on my own.

Any how some times I'm just crying for no apparent reason. People don't always understand that. I get PMS that makes me emotional and sentimental about every thing.

I know how you feel, (((hug)))

but be happy that your sons know you well enough to find out. They care about you or they wouldn't even bother to investigate.

I know how you feel - I have no children, but I do have family and friends that I feel bad about not being there for when I am depressed.

But, what more can I say that hasn't already been said by the other wonderful people that already posted their loving, kind, and understanding thoughts and support for you?

You are in my prayers, Tats, and I give thanks to God for these other wonderful people who love you and care so much about you!

Again, what the others said is 100% correct!

Lotsa love, and loads of kisses to you, your family, and everyone who posted here before me - you are all aces!

- KK

Yes lots of special people here that's for sure!

I about just gave myself a stroke over my nursing license even though I don't work I keep it active and I thought it had expired on me and the darn thing autorenewed on me and I got no notification that it did that.....geez talk about a freaking heart attack!!!

Certainly woke me up today!!

Yeah the boys know I love them more than life, I tell them every chance I get, they are great boys!! I'm in a down slide trying like heck to stay out of the pits ya know? Trying to feel grateful....waiting for the chemicals to shift again to a better state here. Thanks for everyone's support....I really need it today!

I'm so sorry you're hurting sweetie.. depression is a nasty place to be....I hope it will pass soon... do you think you need a med tweak?...
Perhaps some age appropriate education on BP could help them if they don't already have it...
Huge hug of comfort for you ... here's my hand..xoxo

Hope you get that chemical shift soon. I know we can be a slave to chemistry

(((hugs)))