My self respect

My sanity

My independance

My sense of self worth

thanks freeangle....It has been a long ride...and it's getting better...

What I lost is in my past. I just dont look back at what did or did not happen anymore. My focus is always on the future and what my next step will be. Hugs

My paranoia did pass after I walked back inside......it's not that though.....it's the freedom that I miss......In this illness or should I say illnesses....since I have more than one.....I feel trapped like a caged bird.....

I have lost my intellect, my dreams of becoming a doctor or Phd, my reputation, many young years of my life, the ability to *fully* enjoy the rest of my life, my love of art and my ability to create it, the intensity in life, my ambition, my self-respect....

What hurts most though is loosing some of my already meager intellectual ability.

...umm...education

my mind

I've lost a good friend, jobs, career, happiness. Gained fear and anxiety , depression.

ive lost friends, jobs, my family wont hardly talk to me, my ability to go out in public by myself. ive lost more things than i have gained.

I've lost a few friends but I've found the ones that really matter are still here. I lost my ability to do Emergency Work which I still miss.

my mind, my dream of being a cop, my memory, my focus, my self respect, respect from my bratty daughter, my nerves are shot now, cant work, cant drive.

lots.

Me

What I miss the most is working. I don't want people to think I am lazy. I have more than bipolar and have fought for disability and denied everytime. but what i lost i found. I thought I lost God there for a min. but I found him, right where he always was, by myside.

I'm not going to let this illness ruining my dreams.