Big hug for you sweetie...... When I start beating myself up really badly I try to think about how I'd treat someone else if they were doing or had done some of the things I have done

I'm usually kind and forgiving of others and recognize that everyone goes through trials and tribulations

What would you say to me if I had done the same things as you??..... xo

Some days are better than others for me. You are not alone in this. Suncloud is right, what advice would you give a friend? We are often hardest on ourselves. Hugs.

I'm definitely hard on myself in regards to my past mistakes. But honestly I'd be shocked and sort of disgusted by anyone doing some of the things I've done. I'd be embarrassed for them. Angry, if someone did to me what I've done to them. I think that's the problem, I cant work out any possible way in my head to make any of it ok. Imagine losing your sense of peace, your self confidence, your morals, and everything you believed in and stood for. It's pretty awful.

Some days the meds make the problems feel smaller and farther away and some days they dont.

I know exactly what you mean Kitty. I feel the exact same more days than I care to admit. I try to get through it by sleeping, listening to music, reading, watching tv, coming here, talking with friends and/or family...anything to get out of my own head so to speak. Sometimes I fail. And I just end up staring off into space waiting for it to pass. I just kind of try to hold on and grit my teeth until something gives. And keep telling myself over and over that this too shall pass. (((Hugs)))

kitty, i isolate, do relaxation exercises, come here and to some members i found on facebook and take and give comfort from the fact that i am not alone in all this even if there is nobody in RL who gets it. it keeps me going and allows me to gather myself for the few occasions i have to venture out into the world. at the moment it is the best i can do . be gentle with yourself and kind to yourself. you are a good person and always react with compassion to everyone of us here so here's a big box full of it to dip into for yourself. hugs. i hope you find some measure of peace with a little reading, or soft music, finding a good show on netflix or just sitting for a moment and enjoying the silence. burnings essential oils can be good or using them in the bath. sending you some good energy and peaceful times too.

Thank you splitscreen. That means a lot to me that someone else simply gets it, and can understand what its like. But I'm sorry you can relate. I wouldn't wish this on anyone.

Big hugs right back at you.

Thank you for acknowledging my compassion, Irish. You lifted my spirits. I appreciate it. (-:

What I do to find peace depends on what is disturbing my peace. When I am disgusted with myself and things I have done, I work on self-acceptance, self-love and --hardest of all-- self-forgiveness. Random acts of kindness help allot in building my self-image.

Gentle support while you find what works for you, Sullen.

I'm struggling with this too at the moment. I have been such a crazy bitch at times mostly in response to unbearable pressures. I have broken down any barriers I had against self hate by doing self development, which is normally a good thing but has left me filled with self loathing instead. I'm just isolating too now because I just have bad experiences trying to form relationships. My issues are so complex.
I really hope you get through this and can see yourself for the good person you seem to be. Good luck.

I find peace by focusing on my breath first (diaghramatic breathing) to clear my mind and place my hands on my solar plexus to reassure my inner children that things are going to be OK.

Because they are hiding in my subconscious they communicate most often through emotions or by sending me an image from my past of what originally caused their sadness, afeared them or made them mad (angry). Then once I have the permission of any protective parts of me that try to keep me safe, secure and growing I invite them into the present to update them that I am now older, wiser and more capable than ever before.

One very afraid part took on the role of my inner focusing trainee and now champion, remembering to breath and then ask how I feel before I think and going with my intuition.

I forgot to add my best wishes and say it works because I am just doing the best I know at the time... which is all anyone can really expect.

(((freehugs)))

Moob

Meditate. Turn your attention to your physical being. Grounding really helps me too. Yoga helps. I pray and in that I find peace

I’m so sorry about your personal struggles. It’s good to reach out and talk to others who are going through similar experiences so you know you are not alone. I have found that it’s easy to beat myself up and hate on myself because of regrets. The hardest part I believe is being able to forgive “me.” After seeking out a professional counselor (which did take time), who helped me gain some insight and self-awareness, I was able to take ownership of my actions, which led to holding myself accountable, which led to a healing process of being able to forgive myself, which eventually put me in a position where I could go to others and ask for forgiveness from those I have hurt. That put me on the road of becoming a new person, who I actually like. I hope you are able to move beyond your current circumstances and begin a new journey.

i feel like this too. i do something or say something and feel guilt and shame. and unforgiveness for myself. it gets better though

Beating ourselves up is the hardest thing about mental illness, I feel.

Honestly I keep it simple. I wait for a sunny afternoon when I’m free and take a sketchbook or reading book to a quiet park, bring a blanket and breathe.