I live in Onslow County in NC, have full medicaid, and am between doctors. My last psychiatrist seemed great until he suddenly cancelled on me 30minutes before my last appointment. The nurse said his excuse was that I told them I took a valium to help me sleep, that he was now taking me off of benzo's, and that he would not see me that day. My prescription was to take 2 valium per day or when needed. Taking it before bed was not a big deal and MY CHOICE to make was it not?!

Any way, I was so shocked that they would not see me, knowing i had NO MEDS. The valium wasn't even working. I had all of my meds packed in my purse ready to take them back to my doctor. He literally cancelled on me 30 minutes from my appointment time. I was in such dis belief and i was so angry i told the nurse i would not be coming back. I could not believe i was treated that way.

So i established a PCP and they are having a hard time finding another mental health provider for me.. In the mean time I have been on nothing except 100mg Seroquel for sleep and i only have about 7 of them left. I called my PCP yesterday to inform them. The answering nurse told me flat out that my PCP cannot prescribe me anything. She said the DEA has been coming down on them really hard. I don't understand what this has to do with a legitimate prescription for a patient with a history of mental health issues.

So what am i supposed to do now.. My fiance was the only one working and he lost his job over a speeding ticket, currently waiting for a dismissal on that whole thing so he can get his license back.. So we're completely broke and up shit creek right now.

I have been in a manic state for about a week and i tried to explain that its sort of a big problem to the nurse but it didn't seem to matter. The outlook on them finding me a mental health provider isn't looking good. I'm really starting to freak out about the financial situation since it's been about a month he's gone without a job now. We have a 9 month old and animals.. the animals are the only therapy i get.

i need some serious advice. we are not married so my name isn't on any of the bills so i don't qualify for any of the help programs that WIC or DSS offer... what am i supposed to do when i crash from this manic state?????? I am a cutter as well. I don't know how to convey to my PCP that this is a serious issue that needs to be addressed...