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Waiting to die

TC40
TC40
I am not suicidal. However I am waiting to die. I asked God every day to come and take me. I have nothing I have no one. I work at a job that is thankless and I don't make enough money. I am in serious debt. I am extremely obese and it hurts to move. I feel like people don't even acknowledge me as a human being because of my size. I just don't want to be here anymore. I'm starting to get angry with God because he's not listening. I want to go but he keeps saying stay.
Desigol1979
Desigol1979
(((TC)))

You have been loved!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b3TiRcWd1fU
TC40
TC40
That was beautiful. Ty!!!!!!
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
Big hug for you sweetie... I'm so sorry that you're hurting right now... I think he's a pretty smart guy and if he says stay then I believe that there's a good reason for it... I'm glad you're here posting TC....xo
theatrediva
theatrediva
God obviously has a plan for you that's why he keeps you here in my opinion. I weigh almost 500 pounds. I know how painful being extremely obese is both physically and emotionally. It is true people don't treat us right due to our size but I will tell you that there is more to us than fat. Others may not see it but we have to believe it and as hard as it may b, we have to love ourselves and find ways to make ourselves happy. Maybe you could join a support group or book club etc. Somewhere you can make friends? Do something fir yourself. We are a great support group here as well. Im always here if you need a friend. Don't wait to die fight to live. Life is beautiful and you are worth it.
chris138
chris138
I get points in my life, where I am depressed and just wish for a massive heart attack. I think about dieing a lot. Will I ever do anything? I don't think so. If I did not have my parents, and my sister.

I am obese and losing my hair and eyesite. I live at home at 42, and have a low paying job. One thing that keeps me hanging on is a hobby. I am serious. A creative hobby, that I can do something creative with.

Also, I heard this somewhere before. "Life is like driving in the dark in your car. Your head lights only light 30 feet in front of you at a time, you never know what good thing is coming up just ahead".

Do you have any hobbies? I hope you feel better.
spacepony
spacepony
(((Hugs))). TC, I agree with the advice to try something like a book club or creative venture where you can feel seen and acknowledged. My mother was obese, and sometimes she was judged on that, but those who really knew her, close friends and family, loved her for who she was, her wit, sensitivity, and her mind and heart. Sounds like you are sensitive and have a big heart?
rosiestorm
rosiestorm
(((big hugs)))
TC40
TC40
Thank you guys so much!!!!!!! It helps to know I am not alone!!
Autumn111269
Autumn111269
God isn't through with you yet...I am glad you are here and hope you can start feeling better soon. I am sorry you are feeling this way....Big Hugs!!!!
Suninbloom
Suninbloom
TC I'm happy that you're here. I'm so very sorry for your suffering. Hugs for you.
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