Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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RShack13ford
RShack13ford

I can't take the constant ups and downs.  In the past I turned to drugs to help me to be more stable and I still struggle with that addiction even though I'm 7 years clean. The biggest struggle is the people around me not understanding and  think I'm just looking for the easy way  or just want to be high all the time, when  I'm just trying to feel normal and  happy. The prescriptions  don't help much  because they just give me less energy and less patience for people around me. It's hell and I can't make people understand why I feel the need to  drink or smoke pot or crack or sniff  cocaine or shoot heroin. I'm not looking for the easy way I'm looking to feel happy again.  It's  like I have  6 days of complete misery  and 1 manic psuedo happy day 

OlderCPer
OlderCPer
It sounds like you need to work more closely with your Psychiatrist to get on a better medication cocktail to control your symptoms. And if he/she is not willing to do that, it's time to get a new Psychiatrist.

I will say that I've never in my 31 years of being BiPolar and meeting/mentoring other BiPolars come across any that have had success with self-medication with street drugs or alcohol....they just aren't designed to work on the brain they way we need them to, in order to control the disease we have.
Jenniferswe
Jenniferswe
Self medicating is very dangerous. You could run into the wrong substance and it could cause a lot of damage. Big hugs.
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
I agree that you should be working closer with your pdoc..... There are BP meds that lift you more such as Lamictal

The point isn't to be sad some days and happy others .. it's to find stability.... If you haven't tried Lamictal I would ask your pdoc about it

Big hug... Unless the people around you are bipolar they won't get it sweetie... They can empathize but they can't truly understand our plight... xo
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