Irish my friend, we aren't perfect beings, me make mistakes, we're human. I'm sorry that your having such a hard time right now, I wish I were there to sit and have a cup of Earl Grey with you and just talk and sit and "be" with you. I know when my urge to cut comes up sometimes just having another person there to sit with can offset it and make me feel less needy of the blade. Your in my thoughts my friend, as you always are and I have complete faith in you that you'll get through this, as you always do, because you are strong and you are wise and you are a wonderful person and I'm ashamed that I get busy and don't tell you that enough of the time. Can you call in for a Therapy Session and maybe talk some things through? I know you Journal faithfully and get all of this "sad" out of your head, but maybe talking though some of the PTSD thoughts that are plaguing you worse right now with your Therapist might help.

Be safe my friend, take care and remember you have so many of us here that love you and care for you.
Kat

Well, I"m not sure what to say, except I am sorry, and you know I am here for you!

I often wonder if the setbacks are about learning things I missed in the last go-round. Just a wonder. . .
How ya doing today?

Im sorry u felt so bad but your right its done now and now you can get back to work on concentrating on getting back to not doing it again. One slip up here and there is the normal, dont be too hard on yourself okay. Hugs.

Thanks all of you. I feel a little better for the release of it but wish i could just magic the evidence away. that would be great. my mind is a lot less 'wild' which is a good thing. i thought i was going to explode. everything was fragmenting, if you know what i mean? it was like being manic but my body couldn't keep up with my mind. very weird experience. i might try and get some sleep now.

Be kind to yourself. Don't beat yourself up for one slip. I used to cut, it's been 30 yrs give or take, since I cut, but that doesn't mean I don't still get the "need" at times when things get overwhelming in my head. If this becomes an increasing problem, try to find something, perhaps a punching bag for those times when things get ready to "blow". Good luck, I will be thinking of you.

Irish I'm so sorry this time of year is so hard on you...it's all grist for the mill. Onward....I'm here for you :) (((((hugs))))) none of this is easy...

Big hug for you sweetie..... Today is a new day....... We are here......xo