Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
hi ya'll. I wanted to ring something up(and this is gonna be longer than some of my posts so I'll try to break it up) .
I've noticed that somthing in me has changed since feburary and I don't know for better or worse yet. It's like somebody gave me a hammer. I'll try to explain.
I used to be this obediant, follow all the rules, do exactly as I'm told, stay home, balance the budget, cry all the time, do my little crafts, volunteer for the church .....person...I even slept on command.
Then I went to this hospital in florida that I had never been to before with kick ass councellors. I see this big change in me...and not all of it good.
I still cry alot, I whine about having to take my meds, I take 3mg of ativan a day instead of 1(and I'll get to why in a sec) I don't give a flip about how much things cost anymore. and I'll given to suggen urges to attack people..so far my husband while he's sleeping and I'm trying..and people in the movie theater bathrooms.(I came so close I scared myself, while is how I ended up in the other hospital this last time)
oh, and I'm hypoglycemic..so I drink....soda...enough to crash my bloodsugar because that's how I get high. and I've become addicted to doing it.
so I guess somebody gave me a taste for rebelion...a hammer...and instead of finishing the house..I'm smashing the windows..and I don't know how to stop.
I've noticed that somthing in me has changed since feburary and I don't know for better or worse yet. It's like somebody gave me a hammer. I'll try to explain.
I used to be this obediant, follow all the rules, do exactly as I'm told, stay home, balance the budget, cry all the time, do my little crafts, volunteer for the church .....person...I even slept on command.
Then I went to this hospital in florida that I had never been to before with kick ass councellors. I see this big change in me...and not all of it good.
I still cry alot, I whine about having to take my meds, I take 3mg of ativan a day instead of 1(and I'll get to why in a sec) I don't give a flip about how much things cost anymore. and I'll given to suggen urges to attack people..so far my husband while he's sleeping and I'm trying..and people in the movie theater bathrooms.(I came so close I scared myself, while is how I ended up in the other hospital this last time)
oh, and I'm hypoglycemic..so I drink....soda...enough to crash my bloodsugar because that's how I get high. and I've become addicted to doing it.
so I guess somebody gave me a taste for rebelion...a hammer...and instead of finishing the house..I'm smashing the windows..and I don't know how to stop.
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Hey All...I hope that you have a lovely, peaceful beginning of your weekI have a bunch of chores that need doing but may put them off til tomorrow and just hang out with my landlord/roomie todayWhat about you?...Anything special going on?Have a great day and take good care of you!!..Xo
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Once again I've had a fever today. I'm not going to the hospital because that's a huge waste of time but I did schedule a dr appointment for Wednesday afternoon.
Are you seeing a therapist for aftercare?
I know I get these violent urges/thoughts/images when I am tired and taking care of everyone else out there except myself. I also get them when hypomanic.
Can you call your psychiatrist? Be honest with him/her about what is going on.
(((hugs)))
Hi and welcome beggar it sounds like you are going through rebellion and to an extreme... Unfortunately it can come back to haunt you.. Not caring about cost etc may feel good at the moment but if you end up not being able to pay the bills it will be very stressful and if you do flip out to an extreme there will be a consequence .. broken relationships or worse..
Please see your doc and therapy can help this.. .big hug of comfort for you ..x
I would see about getting a med tweak. It could really help you.