IT makes kinda feel better when i think of them hurting

I am an equal opportunity hater also.

glad I am not the only one who think and feels that way.

I must admit that I am guilty when it comes to envy!! I'm very poor, too, and I wish that I had a lot of the fun things that many people do!!! But I never wish them harm -- unless it's someone I don't like for other reasons!!! Then I'd LOVE to see them lose everything, LOLOL!!!!
Well, not really. I really wish no one ill. I think you kind of hurt yourself when you wish that others hurt. And I wouldn't wish this illness on my worst enemy! It's just too horrible!!!!
I'll tell you what I DO like to do!!!! When I'm out in public and people are doing things I don't like, such as walking s-l-o-w-l-y down the middle of a store aisle and I'm behind them, I like to imagine smashing their skulls in with a heavy frying pan, LOL!!!!
The imagining helps me let go of my irritation. Is that what your wish that they were hurt achieves?
I'm not bothered by my thoughts of violence. I would never actually act out on them, even if I could get away with it.
I'm sorry that you are struggling financially. I wish you had all the toys that you want!!!!
Maybe you wish they were hurting merely because you want to feel understood and to not feel alone.
I hope that things get better for you!!! (((((Hugs)))))

i had a friend before he was very good looking long blond curly hair the newest clothes and people in the pub where saying who does he think he is and that sort of stuf

but if they really knew him he has suffered tremendously as a child and as a result was schizophrenic

you can't judge a book by it's cover

Yeah well......I'll just hide behind veryblue.....

Agree with blue, you can't judge the honey by the bee without getting stung.

I can tell you my life story and it reads like a Stephen King novel. But not ONE person in here knows it, because I choose not to share it.

I have no doubt there are others in here who can tell you worse stories.

I have the nice clothes, phone, car, smarts, good job - everything you hate about me - I have.

Just because I have these things, doesn't mean I don't hurt.

In fact, if giving you all the material things I have worked my ass off for makes my pain go away, by all means HAVE IT!!!

I buy my whole life with charge cards that I can't afford does that still count?

I have some top of the line stuff too. I have a job and a family.

I'd be one of those people you would like to hurt.

I also had heartbreak in my life that put my bipolar into the shade.

Looks can be deceiving. unless a person has a snobby attitude attached to them, I really don't care what they have. For me it's not material things that would make me jealous anyway.

I am more likely to be jealous of people that have talents that I wished I had, things like that :P

when i stop looking towards others to validate who i am, i always feel better.

Society will produce that toxic shame. As hard as it is, we must try not to give into that. This is very difficult at times.

In your journal, write down the little happenings that occur when your value is shown. When you show a good ability-when you do something profound for someone else--when there is an affirmation--You will find your value in this.

I have frizzy auburn hair and I do things that are clumsy. Today, I don't have shoulder pads and I am slightly slovenly even though my clothes are pretty good. I almost wore my jacket inside out this morning. I deal with this type of thing every day. I was a Resource Room child and it continues today.

I am a para-professional. I have an IQ that is good enough to be a 1rst-3rd grade teacher. What happened? Well, I can't handle chaos or a classroom. Am I ashamed? No. I know that my job is one where my handicaps are minimalized and compensated for. I am a clerk, and I am one of the best that there is. You have to get to that place where you see yourself and your abilities in a positive light, not an ego charged "I'm better" but a quiet confidence.

Yes, I have these thoughts, too. Most idiots I know who show arrogance and stupidity always pay in ways that the Universe provides. I have seen few who don't have either the Universal karmic consequence or who don't have a blindness of spirit that invokes pity. I know two women who are arrogant. One is a rich older lady whose face looks like a mosaic. She wears nice clothes, but she has chicken legs. It is fine to have chicken legs, but it is not okay to treat others like you are Queen Elizabeth if you are 80 and have chicken legs--sorry. Then, there is another lady who is young and pretty. She treats me like I am sub-human. During Christmas, she will admonish and scold me and treat me like a child in our department. I ignore her. She's blind. Her counterparts, other rich aristocratic people in the department, treat me with noblesse oblige, but she does not. There is a silent battle between me and the lady. I am the daughter of intellectuals and my ego depends upon this shallow lie, but I have nothing else.

Therefore, the development of character, of becoming mindful and use of ones abilities, acheiving stability (which I am not yet entirely stable) and living ones life in happiness is the best revenge for those who think that folks with mental illness can't do squat.

I have a saying: "Every day that I live is an act of rebellion." I feel that there are normals out there who rather feel that I should not exist. Of course, you see with me, I have a lot of anger. Until I forgive FORGIVE, I give the idiots power.

I am working on it.

Regards,
Ekatepnha Kehhetobha Cted

To look at my life on the surface, you would hate me, too. But if you saw me naked, you would thank God for not having to survive all I have to earn my scars. And those are just the physical scars! I would show them to you, too, because those are just the surface. Like Mushroom, I would probably never let you in to see the real damage.

If you saw me on the street, you would resent my (real) Coach purse, my professionally done hair, and maybe other things. But you don't know that I get my hair done because there's too much nerve damage in my hands to do it myself. My Coach bag was SOOO on sale from an outlet store that I have friends whose Target bags cost more.

And if you had a five-minute window into the emotional wreckage of my life, you would recognize me as an equal. I don't believe you would wish me more pain.

I have had it all and then some and also have done the homeless stint a few times - neither of those would be what I want again in my life but while I had it all I would have been one of those ones you hated unless you knew what was truly going on in my life