I know you struggle, but PLEASE, do not do this.
You are a priceless piece of humanity.
love and hugs
dd

Hey, it is 6:30 in the morning my time. Are you ok? I hope you went and got some help. Please let someone know. You are loved here, I know things have been hard on you. It can get better. I hope you have not hurt yourself.

Just let me be, thank you for update & for what your doing.
Herertic. it's time to go to ER. pack a suit case.call 911 or have a neighbor or friend drive you to hospital.
I too have moments that I think of such when I'm in deep depression. but I know that it is just the illness.( it's moment in my illness cycle) that my mind is lieing to me. during such times I'm ocd- ing but I know that it is just part of illness.
sometimes we just need our med twicked or diffrent med. sometimes med that we're on needs a med added to it or a replacement med.
Please go to ER. the hospital have P-Dr n P-nurses that will help you. if you have P-Dr, they will call your Dr and work w her/him.

I hope you relize that I care about you. I have taken time out of my life to reach out to you.
apparently you have a lot of real people on here that truely care about you.

Put away the kit., call 911, pk suit case. set by unlocked ft door w your keys & photo Id. if u have insurance. give the officer or EMS the items. if u don't have insurance u might opt to tell the officer that u needed help but your talking yourself out of doing so but that you so want n need to go to hospital.Tell him/her that your confussed n need his/her help. That's where the state steps in. the state will cover most if not all of medical cost.No they won't lock you up n through away the key. after treatment you get to go home.
I view my hospital visit as a vacation. I needed sound restful sleep n TLC to clear my head & to lesson stress. which lifted the fog.

This ocd-ing moment will pass. your stronger than the illness.

Dam it, I care about you/ Yes YOU.

I'm Admiral 1cu. we are here for you, to be with you. you can't c our faces but we are real people who care about you.

We truly do need you here Heretic. This is not an option and you are not thinking rationally right now. My aunts husband comitted suicide and it destroyed her. Please don't let the illness win and either call a crisis hotline or go to the ER.

The hospital can help you. Give you phone numbers to resources. You would be assigned a social worker. Please don't give up hope!

PLEASE go to the hospital NOW!!!!

I hope this person in pain did not hurt themselves, however I see it as incredibly selfish that he/she would tell everyone on this site this, somehow making others responsible for his/her suicidal actions. People are here to help you and make you feel better, not to be hurt.

I wish heretic health and happiness... suicide is not going to make anything better... just passes your pain on to someone else... not fair.

Sorry to hear of it heretic but thats selfish, I know how much pain life is giving you. I wish you blessed relief from suffering either in this life or the next. If you made it through the night please let us know. We care.

Heretic hope you are still here with us. Please I hope your posting is a cry for help. Hoping its clear how much we care for you. Here's to you to care enough for yourself to get some professional help soon

Prayers are answered. we heard from Heretic today 8/8/12. Thank God for strength to get Heretic thur yesterday/last night.
Uncertain but it seems like Heretic has an appt this coming Monday.
sorry i didn't get to reply to today posting from Heretic. when I got bk to DS to do so. the post had disappeared.
From what I recall. Heretic has returned to work. And that she has to walk 3 miles 1 way, to work, in this exhausting hellish weather.
In 1999 having been treated for heat exhaustion, followed by heat stroke. I worry about her walking out in this hot weather. It doesn't take much to cause the body to over heat. Mine was unable to re regulate body tempture. I had brain fog which fuled depression throughts.
Walking is a form of exercise. walking in reg.normal weather,causes me to sweat. add that to her being out in 100degree weather.ya that concerns me.
I wish that I could at least send her cab fair, so that she doesn't half to be out walking in this heat.
I think that we should keep daily contact w her, in her time of need.

Heretic, if by chance u c this.
I missed you today. You stayed in my throughts n prayers.I put in request to my church pray group for everyone to pray that God gives you strength and peace. They don't know anything other than to pray that you gain additional strength. It's not my place to tell anybody about anybody personal business.with the exception of all people on DS ( BP support group) who love n care about you.
Please Don't give into illness. I need you. we need you. I/we so do care about you.
I'm so proud of you for pulling through.yesterday. I know that your stronger than dam illness.
have you searched for in person support group that would be benifitual to you, to join. I have a support person & a friend who understands and who I can talk w freely. I couldn't find in person support group that I felt that would be benifitual to me.'Thank God for med's - right combo & DS.
This is Admiral1cu. yep, I care about You. You have Lot's of friends on DS who truely do care about you.
XXX's
Hang on.we are with you.

heretic, i hope you are sticking around and that you are doing better than when you first posted this. i had no idea you were so shaky right now. i am sorry. been wrapped up in self and self preservation.

so sorry to see you suffering so much.
please, we are here..
don't do anything rash.

Please don't do it...PLEASE. I know it's rough but...please, call 911 or go to a hospital. Don't do this. We love you...

I am glad that you didn't do it.

I know what a temptation it is when life gets painful.


Wow! You are strong Heretic.

I'm glad you decide to continue living. I know I'd miss you. You need to think what is the reality and what is your illness talking.