Hmmm Thats a tough one hun, first of all im sorry your having a rough go of it : (

I know that when i was hospitalized they gave me some papers for womens shelters.

and if you do get hospitalized, then YES tell them your gonna be in danger after release...they might help.

can you call the hospital and let them know your situation?That way you know what your working with?

BIG HUG of comfort to you, please dont hurt yourself

oops forgot to add...i was kept for 8 days but had to leave early

As soon as you get to the hospital, you request the social worker and tell her your situation, that if released, you will be on the street.

Tell her you need a shelter to go to on the day you are released.

She is supposed to ensure your health and safety through the treatment plan.

Bring this information up again during treatment team with your psychiatrist, social worker, ptherapist, etc.

the more people involved in your treatment and after care the better for you.

You may have to stay on them to find you a shelter, half-way house, etc. but they will do it (squeeky wheel gets the oil)

Just the fact you are concerned about your after care tells me you are ready for change!!! SO happy for you!!

Go to the hospital sweetie... they will help you... a year ago I was in a very similar situation and a door opened for me... a door will always open.. I know that's hard to fathom when you're in such a dark place.. please reach out for the help you need.. big hug of comfort for you..xo

Thanks for your comments -

I think living in a halfway house or shelter would be more depressing than living in this motel room, if I'm suicidal now I'd be dead if I got sent to a shelter. Maybe I should forget it all and just end things peacefully.

The reason I want to go to the hospital is so I will have someone taking care of me, I couldn't stand being sent to a shelter,

i think there is nothing more important than being able to lead a life that has quality, and what i see is that you've been in pain for a long time now.

hospital.

give tomorrow's `heretic' a shot at quality.

Suicidal thoughts and living alone is not such a good thing.
In a half way house or treatment center you will be around people that will help lift your spirits. I know it seens like a risk to go to the hospital. But I think that you will come out a better person on the other side.

Heretic, it doesn't necessarily have to be a half-way house or shelter.

Some homeless coalitions actually rent hotels for shelter.

Make that your request.

I think going into the hospital is the best option at this time.

Please make that call.

sorry you are not doing well.. that doesnt feel good..

i once lived in a motel and i considered myself homeless. if i compare the hospitals to the motel.. the only difference was the diet at the hospital gave me orange juice and vegetables.. i dont know about your motel experience, but i wasnt ordering room service.

if the hospital is a thought, i say stop wondering about the what ifs and go.

You have obviously never been in a hospital if you think they take care of you there is all I can say.

For what its worth, I think you will be in a worse place afterwards if you go to the hospital and lose your home.

Only rich people get nice hospitals.

I think the hospital is a good option for you right now. I agree with most of the opinions you have been given here and also especially about the social worker. Take advantage of everything the hospital can do for you. They can be your advocates.

I'd agree with others, get to hospital.

I really think you should still go to the hospital. Yes, where you're at now emotionally, the thought of a shelter or such sounds horrible, but once the hospital gets you somewhat stable, your mind will be in a different place and possibly more accepting of a shelter.

I've been hospitalized 4 times. The longest stay was 2 months, the shortest was 4 days.

During one of my visits last year there was a bipolar woman there that had been living in her car. The hospital social worker found her a shelter to stay in and mental health care once she got out. They held her at the hospital 3 weeks until the bed at the shelter openned up.

When I am in the hospital, they assign me a case worker and she/he helps me get my stuff together. I would go to the hospital. I echo what everyone else said.