Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
An important thing happened last night. I placed my trust back in God. I had turned my back and walked away for a good while. I got this deluded thought in my sick mind that I would one day be asked to give up Dillon, my 3 year old, to Him just like He had given up Jesus for us.
The very thought of that terrified me to death so I turned away. I could not even think on God without my heart starting to seize up. I now realize the truth. Dillon is His anyways. Just like I am.
This does not mean I am going to be perfect, but it means I am going to strive to be only without being so hard on myself as I was before lest I wanna fall again. I may still curse, but I don't think God is gonna condemn me to hell. I believe we are walking in hell right here on this ole earth. Hope all reading this have a blessed day.
Hugs,
Chelle/Zany
P.S.-none of that means I am going to step foot back in a church. I have had a bad experience there and thus think that the church (not Christ) is man-made and segregated. I think under God there is no segregation. We are all His and should be able to go to Him as such instead of thinking we have to go through a preacher or other. Not knocking them. It just ain't for me no more. ;)
The very thought of that terrified me to death so I turned away. I could not even think on God without my heart starting to seize up. I now realize the truth. Dillon is His anyways. Just like I am.
This does not mean I am going to be perfect, but it means I am going to strive to be only without being so hard on myself as I was before lest I wanna fall again. I may still curse, but I don't think God is gonna condemn me to hell. I believe we are walking in hell right here on this ole earth. Hope all reading this have a blessed day.
Hugs,
Chelle/Zany
P.S.-none of that means I am going to step foot back in a church. I have had a bad experience there and thus think that the church (not Christ) is man-made and segregated. I think under God there is no segregation. We are all His and should be able to go to Him as such instead of thinking we have to go through a preacher or other. Not knocking them. It just ain't for me no more. ;)
Boo-you are absolutely right about that. We should be treated just as well as someone with a physical ailment because that is primarily what ours starts off with is a deviation in a physical component of the body (the brain) and affects us mentally and emotionally.