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Suicidal Thoughs have Returned

hope20z
hope20z
I dont know what's happening. My suicidal thoughts are returning and with them so is the urge to cut, see blood feel the rush I am just itching to cut but I dont want the scars. I am frustrated because there is no one i can relate to. And the people that I would normally talk to dont have any ideal of what I am going through. I'm scared. How much does it usually cost for a couple days in the hospital?I have been there 4 time sbut I dont want to go back but I think that I may nee to. My depression is growing and it is being exasterbated by my mother's depression too. I am so frustrated. my birthday is tomorrow and I want to kill myself tonight.
deleted_user
deleted_user
happy birthday...i know it doesn't feel like it. sorry you're going through this. i'm in canada, so my in-patient stays are free. sorry i can't be of much help there.
i think that if you feel like a danger to yourself, you should go to the er or call a crisis line and get somewhere safe. instead of cutting, maybe you can snap a rubber band on your skin.
eweaver
eweaver
stay strong. you can do this. i believe in you. hold on.
looney1
looney1
Oh its a bummer isn't it? Just remember that it has passed before and will pass again. Hope you have a great day for your birthday.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Please don't do it. I know the thoughts can be overwhelming. Once when I had serious thoughts of suicide, a dear friend made me promise to call him to say goodbye before I really went through with it. That kept me here. Never called him. Maybe you can make a promise to call everyone who was ever important to you before any serious thoughts of doing it.
You have great value and are needed here on earth. You will help many before you go. Sorry for your suffering. Hope you can do something good for you on your b-day.