I'm so sorry your struggling penny, depression is a hard beast to fight and overcome. I used to feel worse at night, atm I am not quite sure.

The board is very impersonal compared to the old one. I think I can count on 2 hands the friends I have who are from the old site, and are active. That leaves the majority not here and I miss that. I don't feel the sense of community here either. But it is what it is, if it wasn't for these few friends I wouldn't be here either.

I know you are in a hard situation. All I can offer is my continued support. I know its hard, but please try to put yourself first.

Try and hang in there

(((hugs))) xx

Hi Penny. Welcome aboard.

Even when I am working nights and sleeping during the day, I feel most everything more at night. I support the theory that there are fewer external distractions at night when most of world is sleeping. Everything is more noticeable when you lower the general activity levels. Insomnia is another subject entirely to this shift worker. Put insomnia with the heightened awareness of "The Bewitching Hours" and . . . Ouch. . . Chaos sandwiches, anyone?

But that is me. . .

Hope you feel free to sort what it is for you here in this forum, Penny. Welcome aboard.

Welcome back sweetie!!... It's great to see you ... I am really sorry you're struggling now though... I think a lot of us are..... Fall is always a time that I dip for a while... Have you seen your doc Penny?... Maybe a med tweak if it continues
I struggled with the new site for a while however I've been on it since March so it's now just DS to me... I would like to see a couple of things tweaked and we're still getting more things added or in the works.... Big hug....xo

Thank you for responding so quickly. I am heavy with depression it's like I am carrying around another body along with mine . Your support gives me hope that maybe there is a light at the end of the tunnel, this was my favorite place to be because of all the friends I made that understand what it's like to have this horrible disease. I don't remember when I have felt this low just keeping my eyes open is a struggle. Waiting for bedtime so I can numb myself. Thank you again .....M

I can honestly relate to your depression. I do feel more depressed in the evenings. I'm constantly nodding off from psych meds, (gabapentin, klonopin & abilify.) The mornings are hardest because of arthritis pain, stiffness and knee, hips and low back pain make it hard to get out of bed. I can't sleep on sides which I prefer because of Trochanteric Bursitis in hips and sleeping on my back is painful because of spine issues & SI Joint dysfunction. I Stumble and fall and struggle with that a lot of clumsiness, running into things, falling in parking lots, bathtub, etc. I fell asleep on toilet and bashed my face into concrete floor. My Husband was terrified took me to ER because face full of blood. Had some scrapes, knot on head, small concussion but CT revealed nothing broken and no bleeding in my brain. HALLELUJAH! My Husband & family thinks it's because of the pain meds I'm on but I didn't have that problem until I started taking the psych meds for the bipolar disorder I do want to say to you that I'm here for you if you need a friend So, just hang in there hang in there and do the best you can & use support on this site. If you have any type of spirituality pray you don't have to be religious to pray I have my crystals I have my God, my yoga. Ihave my life that means a lot to me with my grandchildren however my family doesn't like being around me because they say I slurr when I talk like I'm drunk and I don't even drink I'm afraid the combination of the pain meds which is morphine, oxycodone has a lot to do with the psych meds and the mixture is causing all of these other problems but I'm there for you honey hang in there take care.

Hi Penny and welcome back...my name is for where I live: 'comfortably numb...Sleeping' when depressed and I've been in that state now, on and off for 6 months or so...I try really hard to not nap during the day, as I await my happy respite of the nightfall. (((Hugs))) ML

Hi Penny

sorry to hear you are suffering so much yikes! You have come back and that's wonderful.
Take care of yourself, eat some protein, take some deep breaths ((((hugs))))

hi penny, good to see you. yes it always does seem 'darkest before dawn'. but we get through it with each other. hugs

I feel my best when I am sleeping too. In my dreams Im usually not depressed - doing normal things and feeling normal - which only makes it more depressing when i awake each day. Hang in there - youre not alone.

Thank you all for your support and words of encouragement. I really appreciate it hugs to you all . I am in bed thank god it's bedtime.

I agree with everyone else. Depression is a very annoying disease to have as is Bipolar. I have to say that when I'm alone, I feel more depressed than normal. I will encourage you to reach out to real life friends, too. Ig they reallu like you, they will accept the Bipolar diagnosis, too.

Unfortunately because of the stigma I haven't even come out to family members as to my diagnosis. I also suffer from borderline personality disorder and many other illnesses. I have a very small circle of real life people who know I am sick . That's why this site has been a lifesaver for me. Thank god for daily strength but the new format sent me into a tail spin as I was lost on the new site still finding my way around.

hi penny i am right beside you. i have just spoken to my two sons and am trying to keep things together. i hope you feel better having been on here. the new site is fine once you get used to it. hugs.

I have learned when I am depressed at night, I am actually tired. I just tell myself to go to sleep and it will be better in the morning. And it usually is.

But if I wake up depressed, especially day after day, that is time to take a bit of an AD. Because it doesn't clear up on its own. Technically, I've been depressed since Feb. 2015. when my RA meds failed. I just hate the constant pain. Although lately I am feeling better in my pain, so it may be time to wean off the 1/4 pill of Wellbutrin SR?