Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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Sunshinegirl0228
Sunshinegirl0228

Last night I stayed in bed scrunched up wishing for a bottle of pills to swallow. I told my t I was having the thoughts but not about how bad they get. I ended up taking an extra dose of Ativan to calm down and pass out. That's all. It's easier to talk to you all here. I know I should talk to someone but I talk to you all. Do you think going back to outpatient hospitalization would help me?

Debbalina
Debbalina
Oh kisses. Im sorry your feeling so badly. By outpatient hospitalization - do you mean IOP - an intensive outpatient program? When I was depressed I went to one. It really helped. The connection with others who are struggling really made a difference. It was all groups from 9-1pm. The extra support helped. I'd give it some serious thought.
Sunshinegirl0228
Sunshinegirl0228
Yes I mean IOP. I think I'll have my tdoc call and schedule me in
arfie
arfie
As wonderful as the support I receive here is, it is not a replacement for physical interaction. Humans are a gregarious species and hard-wired to need direct, full-sensory interaction. Much as I hate to admit it. . . Can I go be a grizzly bear now? They are happy campers on their own.

Dunno about the hospital, but I don't believe on-line interaction is enough by itself.
MayB
MayB
Hi Kisses,

There have been a lot of bumps in your road of late pushing you out of stability and into fragility. IOP is a helpful tool for finding your way out of a corner with not enough support.

IOP gets you into a routine, teaches you some helpful tools, and I think helps you to face this illness with a little more resilience. Why would it be a bad idea in your opinion?
Meeniebeans
Meeniebeans
I am sorry you are feeling so depressed. You will feel so much better if you go. I have been that depressed and I am so happy I got help. Please take care of yourself.
mlr0853
mlr0853
Hi kisses, I'd call/or have your psydr call for intake to IOP if you feel the need for support 100%, I've been several times due to depression, before it gets to hospitalization. Agree with Arfie...online is not the same as 'in person' and obtaining relationships with those who are walking in similar shoes. For me. it is about isolation and needing a routine and purpose. Not sure about what you might want, think about that and work towards finding and meeting your needs to become healthy. Best of luck to you :) take care, ml
polarbare
polarbare
Kisses I think it's s great idea to do outpatient ... Online is good but I think sharing with others live might help even more...you have had extra stress recently and you need more support ((hugs)) polar
OlderCPer
OlderCPer
Being comfortable here and finding friends to be supportive is a good tool to use. But, having said that, you really need to be forthright and honest with your Therapist. She should be advising you on whether going to Outpatient or Inpatient care is needed. Long periods of Suicidal thoughts are not something that should be taken lightly.....

You really need to talk to your Therapist about the severity of your thoughts and what is the best way to help you get better. She can't help you unless your honest with her....if you're not being honest with her, you're wasting both of your time. Your relationship with your Therapist is not one that you should be scared of or worried over, if that's the only relationship you can get to, then your Therapist is not being effective in your treatment.
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