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spinning wheels and paranoia

malibumark
malibumark

I know this may be more appropriate for the Schizoaffective Disorder members who are here but


just a heads up. It is so strange how I process feelings. Again and again my family reassures me


and support me in my panicked state. When somethings are out of place it's like to find my 'grounding'


or my 'integrity' I fall to pieces. Yesterday I tried to be proactive about it and I picked up the Bible to read


to provide some solace and ORDER to the all the ideas and reaction I was having to the inputs around me.


I don't know why I do this and it doesn't feel like who I really am or want to be. I texted a message to


a priest I know. I feel like this is a good place to put these thoughts. God forgive me for my foibles.


I have tried to be clinical about my understanding of things - but I am seeing that I am probably not the only


one who spins and reacts. I just am so grateful for the strength my father and family and friends have


when dealing with me. Keeping on the bright side is important - and hoping for more emotional intelligence


so that I don't so easily get offset.

SensitiveHoboLady
SensitiveHoboLady
Hi Mark! It's great you have your family and friends nearby for support. Try to feel a sense of accomplishment in that you have really superb self-awareness dealing with effects of this illness and symptoms...that is a huge feat! You know when to reach for support when you need it and I honestly think that's the key to managing mental illness. (((((Hugs))) of support.
arfie
arfie
No schizoaffective that I know of in my personal portfolio, but there are plenty of spinning wheels and paranoia. Yea, I try to be clinical about, too, but . . . Is it paranoia to believe there are things in the world that never will fit into clinical trials and charts? Even logic is not as pure and straight as "logical thinkers" purport. Only one fact in any given logical process needs to differ to radically change the conclusion.

And then we get to emotional logic. . . Me duele a la cabeza. . .

Acceptance is my main tool for my own "illogical" thoughts and emotions. However big my high IQ brain, I don't GET to understand everything. Let the mystery be. Sometimes that even works to calm my over-active synapses.
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
Great big hug for you sweetie..... I think it's amazing how hard you work at processing and dealing with what you're going through Marky.... It sure t'aint easy

I used to find a lot of comfort in reading the New Testament as well.... I have to go back to it.... I hope you have some peace today.... Another hug and a blessing.....xo
MayB
MayB
Sorry to hear this awful illness rears up with sharp teeth and keeps aiming at you...

Good on you for being able to see that process happening!

The new testament is a great go to for kindness and peace!

Also glad you have family and friends to reach out to...you are a great guy Mark and looks like your DS family thinks so too! ((((Hugs)))) I know it's rough...
malibumark
malibumark
thanks so much friends! I really appreciate your feedback and your being there!! big hugs!
MoobbusT
MoobbusT
Heya Mark... just a quick bit of support for you in your travels buddy. The answers are different for every one of us and I hope you can get some growth towards more light (enlightenment) along the path you have chosen. May more clarity be your friend.
malibumark
malibumark
thanks MoobbusT!
mlr0853
mlr0853
Hi MM, your insight and strength are both so encouraging. Our paths find us on different dx's however the challenges are real! You are not alone and the Bible will open ears to hear your needs along with your Guardian Angel, mine is Urail. I'm taking to him a lot these days :-)
http://www.shininglite.com/uriel.htm#.WK3tbLB-utE
All the best to you, ml
malibumark
malibumark
thanks ml!
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