I'm sorry you are stuck in a bad place right now. That so sucks. :(

It the heat getting bad in LV?

It's not too bad right now, 90, but it's gonna get real bad soon

Indeed.

When it gets hot here, I love tepid then cool showers. It is the only way I can sleep.

I just try to stay indoors as much as possible, before I had a car it was hell walking to work in it. Taking a cool shower sounds like a good idea.

Dearest heretic ,
you know how much I care for you.
I am amazed at your strength and fortitude in the face of so many hurdles.

I am going to once again advise you to seek SSDI.
See a specialized Atty. Someone who will not charge you, unless the case is won.

Even though you see clinic Dr's , I urge you tio try again

Many hugs
dd

I hope your brain cycles soon and gives you relief from depression. Some sunlight might help. Hang in there.

I feel so sorry that you feel horrible so much of the time.

Sometimes you mention the chance of becoming homeless and also that you were happier where you used to live. (Was it Seattle?)

And I always hope that if you see that you actually ARE definitely going to lose your job and the roof over your head, that you will move back before it happens.

If you 'hit bottom', I'd at least like to see it happen in the place you like best.
Because then, as you 'move back up' (and I do believe that you will), you will be in a place that you like best.

I am so glad that you have a car now.
I remember you walking to work in that unrelenting, record high heat last summer. I don't know how you made it.

(((((Wishing you much better times)))))

Big hug of comfort for you.....I know you struggle with the depression terribly....I wish I knew the answer that could help you
Another hug for you heretic and a blessing....xo

So sorry to hear of the place you are in and all the negative thoughts that go with it....Ouch!

Know the territory well and feel for you....

(((((hugs of support))))) and many prayers that things get better....

I don't know your whole situation but I'm with DD about getting your SSDI. I don't know how your able to go to work feeling like this but I don't want to be presume I know your circumstances. Maybe your job keeps you going. I just know I'm not capable of holding a job with the depressive moods I have.

Thomas Edison said "When you've exhausted all possibilities in life, remember this:you haven't" As bad as you feel right now there is always something you haven't tried to make yourself or your situation better. I hope you will brainstorm and figure out what would make your life more bearable? It could be just a small thing. Look at something beautiful today and think of all the tiny littlest things that you are grateful for. Is there a part of your job that you like?

I hope you are able to let a little light in somewhere today no matter how hard things seem today. BIG HUGS!!

I'm sorry you're hurting. We all care about you very much. ((((Hugs))))

Oh heretic. Med adjustments didn't work, huh. I know you hate being Stuck there in LV, but have you not been able to find anything interesting or new to do - even for fun, or a hobby?

I'm so sorry. I really Do remember how I was in a "kind of" similar situation...that kind of there's-no-hope-at-all thing....and the heat wave doesn't help.

Sorry, girl. I'm sending some more and hope that things change before Too much longer.

(((hugs)))

I'm sorry ur struggling so much right now :-( I hope ur med adjustment is something that will work for you and bring you out of this. Just remember...ur stronger than you think you are.

(((((Big hugs)))))

I'm sorry. Really sorry. Lots of days I can/could write that exact post myself.

(((hugs)))