Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
Why am I always on everyone's back burner? I don't come first to anyone. I'm almost always alone. Where are people who actually want to be in my life? My mom is almost always too busy, my sister and I don't get along and she's always too sick or busy with her kids. My "best" friend just got mad at me because I told her I feel like she isn't there for me anymore, after I helped her all yesterday on the phone when she was a crying mess and today I was all lonely and she didn't want to come see me. My neighbor/friend blew me off tonight for her girlfriend... Where is my place in the world? Why am I always so alone. I must be defective. No one seems to want me.
I feel like I wanna crawl in a ball and sleep the rest of my life away.
I feel like I wanna crawl in a ball and sleep the rest of my life away.
Vent away! Rant and share, you will get lots of support and hugs...
If I said something to make you feel other wise, well I won't do it again-sorry.....
"Why am I always on everyone's back burner? I don't come first to anyone."
I've been stuck in that pain for years.... I learned through support groups, that I am responsible for my happiness, not my sick family - they are busy, negative and NEVER going to fill the hole in my heart... That is an inside job.
So if I want to go out, or learn to have fun again - I had to ACCEPT, my family was weird, sick and NOT going to make me happy. So, what I tried to share, is the broken record in our heads, that we are on the back burner - is because I was expecting my family to "Love and take care of me" in my world, they are just not capable of that..
So I make friends at work, church, support groups - I force myself to go out and TRY - I do not expect my family to help with money, rides or vacations...
So, the word pout - came from your post - your wanting them to make you feel better.... I don't see what your doing to feel better? Your posting, but you say "In the fall...."
So with much love and respect - I say WTF? Fall? (((BIG HUG))))
I know my family will never be able to fill anything in that I can't myself. I learnt that a long time ago. I was just having a very rough day and just wanted someone to take the time and give a damn. Gem gave me a call and we talked for a long while and I'm feeling much better now. I just needed someone to talk to, that is all.
I feel ya...
But I use my dogs as a way to relieve separation anxiety from the humans that I love....haha.
I have noone around that I am close to these days and my kids have decided that this is the decade or half a decade they are going to talk to their father instead of me.
Both parents have been gone since 07 and 08 and the one brother that they say is mine I disowned
Yep pretty much fucking alone BUT
On the other hand I have myself (which some days aint anything to be bragging about) I have 2 personal dogs and a cat, some fantastic friends world wide and at present time my laundry room is temp home for 10 abandon dogs
Find something to call your own - you dont need anyone in your life they will come along when life is ready for them but to sit and moan about being lonely IMO just is self destructive