I told my pdoc I went off my meds today because everyone kept begging me to including my case worker. And she doesn't care if I go off of the abilify or not She said it's good that I don't have the paranoia anymore, but also warned me about not taking an anti-psychotic could lead to the paranoia returning and the hallucinations. But I guess it's her job to warn me of the dangers of not being on abillify. But I was only on 15 mg because she switched me from geodon because I was complaining about my low libido But the pdoc said if I haven't been taking any meds since before Halloween and the libido hasn't returned then it's not the meds its something else. So she wants me to go back on wellbutrin for medication maintenance even if I feel good. I think it sucks that I have to be on meds even though there's no depression or mania. I told her that the hubby made the comment that he couldn't pay for the abiliify anymore because the insurance premium went up and he lost some hours at work making the 30 bottle unaffordable. She said if it comes down to the fact that I need an anti psychotic to survive that she will put me on a less expensive one. But for now she told me it's okay to be off if it if I am not having any paranoia or hallucinations. That's a load of crap right there. I wonder if I need a second opinion or if I should go with the advice of my pdoc......she wouldn't even re-evaluate me like I wanted which pisses me off. I come in doubting my diagnosis and she won't even check my files or do anything to reassure me. She just says well I want you back on wellbutrin because I am afraid that sooner or later you're gonna crash. How can someone crash without the mania??? I don't understand. Don't you have to be really high up to crash? But I feel normal. Should I get a second opinion??
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