ive been debating back and forth for the last little while if I should commit myself to the voluntarily crisis unit in my town. I've been feeling depressed lately, but I'm bi polar so I'm always finding myself depressed. But this is it's different. I never lash out and I find myself doing that. I also have been resorting to all my self destructive behaviours. But in moderation. I used to cut all the time and now it's only a few times a month. I used to overeat then purge  all the time and now it's only like once a week. I used to resort to sleeping pills just to sleep my day off away so I don't have to dwell in the depression and now I only do that once or twice a month. You see though, I had completely stopped all these habits for years. And in the last few months I've been doing it in moderation. 

I'm at a point where I don't know if I'm okay or if I'm falling apart. I'm alienating myself, which I usually do when I get depressed. I had suicidal thoughts but I have had them for a while now. I just feel like I can't do my job properly now, I feel like something is coming. 

So am I overreacting if I commit myself? Also I'm not on medication. Waiting since May to see a psychiatrist and probably won't see one until October. The wait is long here.