Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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zeinna
zeinna
Hi , it's been quite a while since I last wrote here , I passed my exams and now I'm in year 3 in college , I only failed 2 courses and I'll be studying them this year . But I noticed that my energy lvl is hideous . I can barely study and I walk around tha house doing nothing for hours , letterally walking back and forth .
I'm a shadow of what I used to be now and I used to be really good , spending up to 12 hours str8 studying . Now I can barely concentrate and the yield is pathetic .
I don't draw anymore and I sleep a lot.
I'm going insane and I noticed another pathetic thing about me , I tend to complain about me being sick to other people so they don't think I'm a loser and a failure in college . That is sooo pathetic.
Halterbroke
Halterbroke
Hmm. Do you think you are depressed or that possibly your meds are weighing you down more than necessary? You should call your doc and get in there to see him.

College is HARD. I applaud you very much for working at it even when it's tough. My bipolar made itself evident when I was in my second year of college and it was a terrible struggle to get by. I made it, and you can make it too! Sounds like you just need to see your doctor, and soon. (((hugs)))
evildoer
evildoer
It's just a phase - I go through the low energy times wondering if I'll survive the lethargy, but then I get better. ??? Meds can really effect it too. How's your diet?

I'm on Vega energizing smoothies (berry) and they are alright.
sfagrad
sfagrad
I was the same way in college. I was not medicated enough at the time. I almost had to drop put but I stuck it out and graduated. I would go see your pdoc ASAP. Good luck.
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
Big hug for you z....I'm sorry you're struggling... I found I've been very tired for a while now and I think it's a big part due to the weather change..
If I were you I'd see my pdoc and let him know your symptoms... Maybe you can talk to the school about taking not so heavy a caseload if you're not up to it.....x
Halterbroke
Halterbroke
Jan has a good point... You can go see the Dean of Students and see about getting extra help for people with disabilities. In grad school I had access to textbooks on tape and longer time periods to take exams and hand in papers.
malibumark
malibumark
I had low energy and low focus ability during college when my illness first surfaced. It does go away after a while, but sometimes when we push ourselves so hard for so long, it does not do us good. It took me a while to learn how to listen to the fatigue so I could learn some preventative rest and care.
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