U can always tlk to me Kitty Hun I tell u tht all the time sweety...everyone here gets like tht. We r all sick ya know. I been feeling real depressed lately too. While reading the board it seems lots of us r feeling down today. Try reading other posts maybe just the fun ones, even if ya don't reply babe mayb just reading wht ur friends say will cheer ya up. Big hugs girl ((()))

thanks wow i will do that.

We all feel sad and lonely here. It's called depression. When I'm really depressed, I do more lurking on the boards than anything else, but that's just me. I long to talk to people about what is wrong but I always feel like I'm a burden. You are better than that. You posted. And we are here for you. All you have to do is tell us what would help you the most. We've got your back.

thanks cammiecat. I post sometimes but sometimes I dont. I feel like the same old record over and over again though. I just need something funny or something to laugh at maybe. I hope you are doing well.

I've been feeling the same way.

well DS is a good place to talk and vent. So anything you want to talk about at all?

I haven't been on DS for awhile,today I felt desperately lonely and isolated and your posting spoke to my heart, I know we will get through this. I tell myself over and over it's just this damn BI polar....maybe you can try that too. I hope it helps to know your not alone. Be well- Bonzai

(((((((((Big Hugs)))))))))))) kittycat. xo feel free to talk to me :)

Hello. here I am, here we are for you.we are your friends. behind the screen n keyboards we are real people.
Aw, BP depression levels. mine has diffrent levels.I refer to mine as diffrent shades of gray. The weather seems to also have an effect on mine, as with shorter days n decress in out door activitys.I so dislike winter.
I don't care what others might say, I believe that moon also has an effect on us.
I live w daily depression thats just part of my BP. when gray reaches a certain level. I gather mag./books n fill a cooler n make up sofa n add extry pillows on my bed n stock uo the apt size refg that I use as an end table in my bd rm.n I obtain a veg party tray from deli n frozen single serveing, micowave, meals.I make myself go n have my hair n nails done, then I take a long n good bath & then shower off n put on my pj that have footys built in n I go from bed to sofa n bk n forth.
somewhere during this I let my dear & closest freinds know that I won't be answering the phone n my e mail replys might be late. They already know what I'm talking about n what they r to do n not do. I simply ride out the temporary wave.Most of people that I know, I don't share my medical record with. so my daily support buddy n woman that work for in home care service runs interfearance for me.
Know that you are not alone, we so understand n we are here for you n we are your freinds.
I'm sending you a bg bear hug, the kind that lefts you up on your tip toes kind of hug w a few extry hugs

I too feel like I sound like a broken record. I am where you are now to. I feel sad and lonely nothing makes me happy. I am in a bad mood and have been for days. We have all been in your shoes. This is what DS is for.

Sending you lots of love.

thanks guys.((((((hugs)))))) to everyone. DAB3 thanks I hope you feel better to. Nobody knows how you feel unless they walk in your shoes. Does anyone feel stupid because of thier meds or stupid because of bipolar? I do.

I have had meds make me feel stupid, particularly anti-psychotics and Lamictal. Lamictal and Topomax are notorious for affecting memory, focus and verbal skills. Sucks.

Exercise is always good for just about anything, but if it's really bad, you could look at alternative meds.

You have us lot on here. You have made the first step of feeling better by reaching out to us all. If you need to chat I'm always around on chat.
My meds. sometimes make me feel like I have no brain or anything. We have all been there before I'm sure. I even poured orange juice on my cereal this morning because my meds. made me so tired!! Just gotta laugh at myself really.

Hi Kitty~~

Hope you're having a better day today.

I'm just a bit different with meds than I was before diagnosis. I don't shoot out of bed like a lightning bolt after 2-3 hours sleep and think I can finish a week's worth of chores in 2 hours. :)

I've been on my med combo for about a year now. I've noticed changes (and improvements) all along the way. Stupid? No, I don't think so. I find myself not too interested in reading books but then I never was a reader (couldn't sit still.)

I've noticed I don't instantly recall every detail of my entire life like I used to. That's ok .... actually quite a relief. If I want or need to remember something sometimes it takes a little bit. I've noticed that if I'm trying to remember the name of some long lost teacher, acquaintance or other person sometimes I visualize the first letter of their name. That is kinda weird .... but hey, whatever works.

Sending you a little sunshine today!

Sorry your feeling so bad iknow the feeling all too well. Sometimes when i wake in the morning im like drats another day to battle my mind. Its never ending battle. Hang in there. hugs.

I know the sad and lonely feelings, happens to all of us. Last time I was in the hospital I had the social worker suggest I get out of the house and do something. So now when those feelings start to pop up, I get out and go for a walk in the park. Sometimes I meet someone doing the same and have a nice chat. I also make myself do things like go to the store for a little food therapy, chocolate ice cream and Dr. Pepper.

I hope you feel better soon.

(((HUGS)))