that's what happens to me. Abilify seems to work pretty well, so far so good.

Most of the time my psychosis occurs during the depths of hell depressions. I'm in the hospital by that time trying to stay in a safe location...safe from me.

wow! so im not the only one. huh? do most ppl have to deal with this?

think that is bp1?

ahh then im definatly BP 1

what are some signs of psychosis.I know I could look it up, but thought since some of you have it ,i might understand better. My daughter , i think has some psychosis, she will forget days , will think it is a certain day and it be 3-4 days later and willdo things like painting pictures on the doors and never remember it, she was sittingonthe couch one morning , filing her fingernails. Whe her husband came home from work, she was sitting there still filing her nails to almost nothing. Is this part of psychosis? Thank you

absolutely. Now I'm on Lamictal. But since I'm not tending toward mania much, it's not frequent for me. But I have to be consistent with meds.

She usually stays on the depressive side when she has mania , she has it big, but not often

I've only had two episodes. The first, I went in the hospital. I swore I would never go back to the hospital. The second, I spent 3 months in my bedroom, lost 40 lbs, didn't eat just drank and took benadryl. During my summer in my bedroom I heard all kinds of things, I heard the trumpets from revelation signaling the end of the world. The devil (i thought) spoke to me. Terrible Terrible Experience.

I've been in the depressed state sense last summer. Untill I met lithium. LoL

yeah my psychotic episodes include seeing the world in terms of good and evil devils and godly beings. I go through this everytime and one time i acted totally berserk and cut cords off of electrical equipment so that "the children wouldnt get hurt" , i ened up in the intensive care unit because they "accidentally " pumped my stomach (i had put my pills in a lotion bottle) i then went to my former job and busted in it went even further than that. I ended up at the psych ward for christmas:(

If you were ever full blown manic, you are BP 1. So technically I am BP I but I don't take any mood stabilizer. As I healed down to BP II or III. I do take an anti depressant, and I am probably going to try a mood stabilizer again at some point.

When I had that only full blown manic week, prior to that week, I had auditory hallucinations upon waking up in the morning, of leprechauns or fairies, who would run away when they saw I was waking up. This was before opening my eyes and fully awakening. My pdoc said it is normal if it is during that state before fully waking, but it's the only time I've ever had hallucinations.

When fully manic, I might have had some hallucinations also - of the phone ringing 3 times, as I don't know if it rang 3 times a bunch of times or not in reality. I experienced it as that. The number 3 seemed very prominent, and now I see the number 3 is the atomic number of Lithium which I find to be a bit of a coincidence perhaps.

I would run upstairs to get back to my writing, I thought I was writing some shakespeare type screen play but with a comedic twist, when in reality I don't know if I really wrote anything or not, as I deleted it all afterwards. Probably not as much as I was delusioning. At the same time an original symphony was playing in my mind while I wrote as well - another unusual for me. As I am not a musician.

I felt I could heal people with my hands, and I tried it on my wife with psychological healing. She seemed to respond to it. I was sane enough to not have tried it on anyone else. Words seemed to come flawlessly, I seemed to hike faster and feel stronger, sex was wild, and I thought I must have reached enlightenment and that I might have been on the same level as Jesus was. Then the crash into the severe depression followed. So that is my full blown manic experience. Oh and I think in my writings I prophecied 9/11, just in such an abstract way probably no one could have deciphered it until afterwards, including myself. It is such a strange, drug like experience that is too hard to describe to others, that you pretty much want to forget it ever happened, and you don't want to go back because of the high price of the months of heavy depression (killed brain cells) that follow.

She might be full blown manic, or just hypomanic, or hallucinating (psychotic level of full blown mania,) or she might just be self injuring regarding the nail filing?

yep! been through the visions of the lord Jesus guiding me all day on a daily walk with him. speaking to me telling me to not listen to the devil telling me to let myself die buy holding my breath. I once thought i was giving birth to the christ child etc etc

yep! i only seem to get the real deal"mania with psychosis)

Totally with you I carried my rosary everywhere! Read the Gospels and Numbers over and over. I also thought my purpose was to solve some blood disease. Got out my hematology book and went to town. Noone knew, well except for here, now.

thanks mtman, she still cuts. It was like she was not aware of what she was doing, like she left her body. i don't know. We had her hospitiloized twice as a teen ager, per her request, but it didn't help her. The doc at the hospital told us she masked things real well. Saying she is fine and be going through hell. Her husband is very supportive.