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iam30113
iam30113
I think all of us have considered suicide at one point or another. I don't know if anyone has ever read the book or seen the movie 13 Reasons Why. It's basically about this teenage girl who commits suicide but before she did she made tapes detailing the reasons for her 'decision' and mailed it to the people who drove her to it. Have you ever made that kind of elaborate plans? Written one of those 'if you're reading this I'm dead' letters? Given your password to someone so they can notify the DS family? Whenever members aren't active for a while I get a little worried and start wondering how we'll know if something really tragic happened. An accident or worse. I'm a bit of a worrier and I tend to over think things but has anyone else ever thought along this line? Not to be morbid or anything...
sadiegirl13
sadiegirl13
I've set things in order before. The first time was when I was a teenager. There have been more recent times. But here I am :)
iam30113
iam30113
And here you'll stay. After my attempt I realized all my real time people would know what happened but you guys wouldn't but I don't trust anyone to keep my log in info. Considered giving it to my tdoc but he might think I'm gonna make another attempt.
spacekat
spacekat
Yes, I put it all together so my mother would understand (I thought). That was my first attempt. And I've received info from a friend who took his life - he left a long message on my answering machine telling me what he was doing and why.
Community Leaderacuriousfish
acuriousfish
Sometimes it's better to just hope members have left DS for other reasons.

I've kept quiet about the people that have been lost.
bumsen30
bumsen30
I usually don't let my thoughts become actions when I'm that depressed but I have thought seriously about it before not a letter but have thought of different ways of killing myself I never write it down or plan it out I am just lucky to be alive everyday is a struggle for me if I were to kill myself I wouldn't leave answers for why if I were to do it but I'd leave everything signed in on my phone just to contact people but I'd never do that to myself
theatrediva
theatrediva
Ive thought about writing good bye letters before and what kind of funeral I would want etc.
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
Bringing this up is a good point... One of the big reasons people commit suicide is I'll show you!...How cruel is that! and very narcissistic

I've certainly had the feelings... I'm on the depressive side however I took suicide as an option off of the table a few years ago... I still have the feelings at times and if it gets to strong or goes on for too long I get to the doctor... I recognize that it's part of an illness and it destroys the lives of others so I fight it and there have been times that I have to fight it everyday for a while
irishwriter
irishwriter
i wouldn't do such a shit things but if I ever do succeed my sister is a member of ds.( inactive) and would certainly let you guys know. you are all like my family.
irishwriter
irishwriter
if I were to leave a note it would say ' I died of bipolar disorder'. i truly believe it is just like any other disease that has to be battled with.
irishwriter
irishwriter
after I failed four weeks ago docs and one of my sons asked me why and i answered 'there is no 'why' it is a disease!' why would they even ask such a stupid question. if we were well we wouldn't do these things.
pumpkinpumpkin
pumpkinpumpkin
Here's what the National Institutes of Health has to say about the cause of suicide. Irish, you are right. BP is at the top of the list.

I think people always try to rationalize that the deceased person's situation wasn't that bad in order to reassure themselves that they could never commit suicide.
pumpkinpumpkin
pumpkinpumpkin
http://www.nlm.nih.gov/medlineplus/ency/article/001554.htm

Sorry. NIH on causes of suicide.
heretic
heretic
I have no one to notify when I die.
There is nothing I want anyone to know.
When I go it will not leave a ripple in time.
PaganSpirit
PaganSpirit
Ive never made detailed plans. Ive thought about what I would include in a letter but thats it. Ive made 3 attempts on my life and each time I was in such agony, confusion and pain that I wasn't thinking of anything else but being dead. Suicide I feel is a very selfish thing, not that Im judging anyone who thinks about it, tries it, of succeeds. For me an explanation was the last thing on my mind at the time.
daftoptms
daftoptms
I tried 2 times in my youth. Have considered it just about everyday and it drives my husband crazy. He say's" Have you thought about what that would do to me and the ppl that love you?" "Do you know how many lives you changed that would be effected?"

That sometimes help and I realize what's he's trying to say but sometimes I don't think of those things but it will kinda make me think.

I've written and Told Mike about what I want to wear. what song, What color I want to be buried in What ppl I want to give my personal items. I've even told him I want balloons instead of flowers lots and lots of red balloons that way everyone gets a balloon to let go and float away certain ppl fone numbers.. Everytime I do that he just cries.
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