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Positive steps ahead

Aliona
Aliona

I have been sharing some really dark moments here, and decided to share some positive developments)


jist this morning I felt hopeless and completely down, but after spending a day with a man I've had a complicated relationship for the past two years , but decided to let him back into my life after the last crisis , I feel much better! I also spoke to my best friend - she called me and we focused all the two hour conversation on her - instead of me wining about my problems .


and now I feel that I still have some people in my life and I feel like a normal person for a change.


I have been pushing this man away for the last year , telling him that we are going to be just friends. I felt that he's not my equal  I know that sounds very self inflating , but this were my thoughts and I'm being honest here . And partially it's true. We are from different walks of life . But nevertheless he makes me feel alive and pulls me up from my deepest downs . So I begin to reevaluate this relationship and thinking if there's a man , who still accepts me regardless of my illness , maybe I should give it another chance . He makes me feel happy even when I just felt I didn't have a will to live few hours ago. And that's not cycling from down to up - that's true emotions. There's something about him which gives me warmth and strength and the feeling of being cared for. So I'm thinking maybe I should put all my bias prejudices  away and just give myself a chance to be happy .


He will be moving from New York in a few months and offering me to move with him . First to South Carolina and then to Dominican Republic . I have been a New Yorker for 27 years , but right now my life is in ruins after the last episode and I'm not sure there's a chance to rebuild my life here..(


And maybe life and God put me in this situation that I would take a chance on a different life , which will bring me true happiness. I still think we are very different , but we have wonderful times together and he really makes me happy. It is a very big decision to love with him and I'm just begining to contemplate it , but somehow thinking about it gives me hope for a new life .


He is very well aware of my illness and is ready to help me get through it - and that is priceless . Just wanted to share that sometimes when we feel there's absolutely no hope , life shows us a new way. 
Wish everyone here a positive outlook and to know that hope is still possible !


your input on my situation is very welcome 

Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
Big hug for you Al.... It's great that you have good people in your life

With regards to moving in a pretty short while I wouldn't do that until you are stable for a very long while.... Moving is HUGE.... One of the biggies in life ... Right up there with marriage and grief and until you are really stable I wouldn't do it

You can still care about someone and be very involved... Have a long distance for a while

I mean you are just deciding today that you want to be involved at all with this man

He sounds like a great guy though and I hope that things go really well for you.... Big hug.....xo
ChickenThighs
ChickenThighs
Sounds like providence at work. That’s awesome, I sincerely hope it works out for you. I agree with the advice above, make sure you’re in a good place before moving, as there are tons of stressors in that situation.
SensitiveHoboLady
SensitiveHoboLady
I’m glad things are starting to look up after going through the difficulties. It takes some rebuilding and time after a hospitalization, speaking from my own experiences.

Glad you have someon in your life who is supportive. That’s wonderful. I can only echo what others have mentioned - take some time to move through the steps of moving and stepping into so much if you’ve only just decided that this relationship is good for you. We normally have reservations at first for a reason. Those places you are talking about all seem like very different environments and that’s something to think about ahead of time. Moving is big time stuff! Wishing you many good thoughts and peace.
Aliona
Aliona
Thank you for your comments. Today, after spending another day with this man, I don’t feel that I will be able to tie my life with him for good.. Back to hopelessness( I have money for a few months to pay for my apartment , and then if I don’t find more students , I won’t be able to keep my apartment . The cost of living is very expensive in NYC. So my prospects are either living with my parents - which I can’t stand , because I have a toxic relationship with my mother , and feel like I’m a controlled teenager when I stay with my parents , who has no life on her own- or moving away with a man I don’t really love( this is how I feel today unfortunately ((
Angela-Boyle
Angela-Boyle
If you found someone who loves you despite your flaws they're a keeper. Just make sure you're equally yoked. That's my input best wishes! Glad he is making you have hope and feel alive again.
Maui1992
Maui1992
I'm glad you're thinking twice, Aliona. I encourage you to learn and practice DBT. Medication is necessary but not enough. You don't need a man to make you well…… You can do it on your own…… Although having friends, male or female, is a great asset. Remember the saying – don't put all your eggs in one basket. Best wishes.
SensitiveHoboLady
SensitiveHoboLady
I have been in your shoes in the past. Don’t give up. I hope some steady income works it’s way through. Worst case scenario- a move to the parents. Just temporarily. I’ve had to do that in the past. No matter what - keep going.
Sunshinegirl0228
Sunshinegirl0228
That’s great that you have people in your corner. I’ve given up on someday finding a man who gets me and is willing to put up with my moods.
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