Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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lotusladell
lotusladell

I feel the wanting to die aspect of this diagnosis. which is I have schizoaffective bipolar type, right now I'm in a depressive psychosis state, hearing voices really paranoid. I tried to call my doctor but she hasn't called back yet.  I feel like i am a bother to people, i haven't had a good night's sleep in months im just not a good sleeper. my tired is tired.  i have no energy to ADL...showering is a huge ordeal...i know that is gross but true. my mood is flat and then all of sudden that stupid voice comes back and says something that makes me cry...i don't know if any of this makes any sense or not, im sorry.  i don't leave my house unless my wife comes with me, i cancel my appt because i don't have the will to get out of bed, i am and feel like a worthless wife and human.

Community Leaderacuriousfish
acuriousfish
hi, and welcome to the board.

You are obviously self aware and perceptive so that's a good start.

I think alot of us struggle with feeling worthless - from what you say the meds aren't working so well although I've had schizoaffective friends that have voices most of the time..I hope your doctor calls you back soon..in the meantime have a look round and post some more
lotusladell
lotusladell
thank you...im just so lonely...my wife works all day and I'm alone all day with my head
arfie
arfie
Welcome to DS, Lotus. Don't accuse me of experting, but I does believe that context is everything when it comes to talking about my dysfunctions. A business meeting or a birthday party is not likely to provide a healthy context for the discussion. A peer support group where other people are likely to be looking for solutions to the same problem is a first rate context in my just-a-patient world. Here, I feel fairly confident I am not a problem to anyone when I discuss my symptoms, etc.

Hope you feel safe opening up here, as well. Welcome aboard.
BothsidesBroken
BothsidesBroken
Those are all symptoms of your illness. You're going to have to get forceful to make the appointment. If you're suicidal or self harming or about to, stop and call 911. They'll get you somewhere safe
dinahmorris
dinahmorris
I agree with all the above-mostly-keep safe and spend time with us. DS is a great place to find your feet again. xxx
dinahmorris
dinahmorris
I meant all the above but especially! does that make better sense. Welcome Lotus
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
Hi and Welcome to the board.... I hope your doctor gets back to you soon..... I'm glad you've found us.... This is a great site!!.... Big hug....xo
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