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MaztoLew25
MaztoLew25

I am not sure if I am BiPolar. I have been diagnosed with Depression but I have crazy mood swings to the point I do get angry. I haven't seen a Therapist about it as I lost my Health Insurance when I left my job. I have no ways to calm down as I don't have anyone to take over my duties when I do need some time off. My fiance of 4 years has had an affair and acts like it's no big deal. He told me because I was crazy and always angry that it was my fault. He needed to talk to people and be social and away from me. This didn't help me. I have so much anger and hatred towards him. Yet, I feel like I was never really what he wanted. I get upset and hurt a lot because of this. He doesn't understand why I get angry and seems like he doesn't want to understand. He uses it as an excuse for him to go out and see other women. We have a 2.5-year-old-daughter and he isn't very interested in her becuase shes a girl and at an age that he isn't great with. Or so he says. I get upset because I'm stuck doing everything. I clean her potty, cook for her, clean up after her, I put her to bed for her nap and bedtime. I'm also the one that gives her baths and takes her on outings. I get angry and let him know that it hurts me and I'm having a hard time. Yet he checks out. I don't know what to do. I feel like more panic attacks are in my future.

tommymott
tommymott
I'm sorry you're going through so much stress. Anger can naturally be a part of depression, and anger can be the result of being blame for others shortcomings and failures. The fear of starting or ending a relationship causes lots of stress. Having lived through a lot of this I can only say that the pain and energy it would take to establish a productive life for yourself and your daughter would be worth it. There are methods that can be used to deal with depression and anger but sometimes I think anger is justified
so we need to deal with whatever it is that is triggering the anger and not just the anger itself. There's a limit to what we all can bear. Some things we can control better than others and it's good to know what we can do and then take steps to do it. I wish you strength and understanding.
Sunshinegirl0228
Sunshinegirl0228
Sounds like an emotionally abuse relationship. Think about what’s best for you and your daughter
Community Leaderacuriousfish
acuriousfish
Bipolar isn't really about mood swings or getting angry - it's about having huge changes in energy levels, speed of thinking, changes in interests, sort of compulsions, odd beliefs - but only at certain times - and the only way you are getting to the bottom of this would be with a psychiatrist.

But my guess is that being in an abusive relationship would be more than enough to cause depression and anger.
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
I agree that it sounds like an emotionally abusive relationship.... This would be no good for your child to see

I would either stop what you're both doing or let it go and work on being good parents

You'd have to see a doctor in order to be diagnosed.... I hope that you're able to find one.... I agree that daily up's and downs don't 'sound' like BP to me.... It seems like you're under a lot of stress though.... Big hug......xo
MaztoLew25
MaztoLew25
Thank you! Like I said- I'm not sure. I got it in my head that I could as my fiance and my mother both tell me I am because I can be happy one minute and stuck in bed the next. They're both no help to me. I want my daughter to think I am strong and smart so she will be too. But her father isn't helping that by running away from us. I feel like he doesn't really want to be a dad unless it's on his time when he wants to be dad. I have so much stress here I hate it. It's all overwhelming a lot. It doesn't get better if I try and talk about it because it's like they don't care.
Nester4U
Nester4U
Do you have means to go to a therapist who can help you figure out by referring you to a psychiatrist to figure out a proper diagnosis? That way you will know if medication can help. Ofc you have problems regardless but having the right meds can help you handle your circumstances tremendously. Prayers for you and your family!
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