Have you talked to your doc about the lack of sleep and pain?
I hope you can find solutions that work for you. I know that if I lose sleep everything goes to hell.

Last night was my first night in years without any Trazodone and instead I used Excedrin PM. I slept better and am just dingy as hell.

is there no bed there you could get a couple of hours in or a hot bath to ease your bones?

I have tried many sleep aids and none work but ambien so far. but with ambien you aren't suppose to take it more than 7 days in a row, combine that with the fact that I left concerta at my mom's so I've been with out it and I'm screwed. My circadian clock is all F*&$#@ up and with out medications I'm afraid I just natural sleep during the day and not at night. it's a sad story but there's nothing I can do about it. I'm so awake at night usually it's like I'm wired.

as far as the joint pain goes I've been having it for awhile now, and it's getting worse. My nees especially hurt. The pain was so bad yesterday I broke down and bought some aleve and bengay. I used the whole tub practically in one night and the aleve worked at first but wore off so quickly. I've been popping them like candy. I've been meaning to make an appointment with my doc but since my sleep cycle is off the wall again I'm afraid I just haven't gotten around too it. You have to call them at 8 am exactly to make a same day appointment and if you try to schedual one you can't get in for months.

I almost thought about going to the ER last night because my joint pain was driving me crazy.

And no I don't have a bed I don't have any furniture at all. I have shitty dry rotted army cot, which since I'm so obese I can't fit on it, and I have stilts that use to hold up an air mattress. But that air mattress is popped, so I'm reduced to sleeping on the floor which has been hell on my back.

I know there's furniture donations around but I don't have any way to transport it (which you have to have on your own) and even if I did I sure as shit can't carry that myself. You see the horrible horrible problem here? I really don't want to own furniture in case I ever am put in a position where I need to move out (especially quickly). I'm just not able to do it any more. I know that's a horrible attitude to have but I've lost sooo much stuff so many times. I've been through it before, being evicted and not being able to take a thing with me. I do tend to live in fear of that so I've learned it's easier not to own any thing.

I'm not looking for pity though I don't feel bad about it. I'm actually pretty happy considering ever thing. But last night I was feeling quite negative thanks to not sleeping. I don't want people to cry about it either. I told my neighbor who is such a kindhearted person she started crying. Which almost made me cry. I didn't like that, because I'm not sad about it. I chose it in a way I suppose.

But now that my joints hurt so bad I am starting to rethink the whole not having a bed thing. It'd be nice to have one since I'm like a princess with my body. Every thing needs to be perfect or I tend to be grouchy. And nagging pain drives me nuts because I can't focus on anything else but that.

I hate going down hill, and I hate bengay because I slather on so much that I smell like a walking medicine cabinet.

Doorknob!! That's no way to live!!! I get the not owning anything so that you don't ever have to walk away from it, but not a bed or a couch or SOMETHING halfway comfortable to sleep on!!!
Do you think you could go to a church and ask if they could help you with the delivery if you could find a furniture donation somewhere? I used to go to a Methodist church and they were very good about stuff like that.
I wouldn't mind walking away from just a couch or a bed if I had to leave. At least not a much as walking away from a whole place full of furniture.
I don't like the thought of you sleeping on the floor! I hope you find something comfier soon!!! (((((Hugs)))))

I hope you will get an appt with your doc really soon sweetie.. there is much better medication out there to relieve joint pain.. you will end up ill without sleep.. big hug and a blessing for ya..x

well I don't know about the furniture I have a lot on my to do list already. But the doctor's appointment is high up on that list. I will see if I can wake up in time on monday. I know there's better pain meds for joint pain out there but probably not over the counter. I don't want to be a baby and say my pain is horrible or bad but last night it was horrible and bad. Probably not as bad as say some one who was ran over with a car, but bad enough to make me want to die to end it all.

As a recovering addict though I'm skeptical of what kind of pain meds they will actually give me. I'm a former heroin addict but I admit I never crave heroin or even desire to use it, but I do think about it when I'm in pain because I know that heroin cures pain you didn't even know you had LOL. One time I tried heroin and I was like "WOW my nee feels better! I didn't even know my nee was hurting but it feels great now!" The down side of that drug is that when you run out all that pain that was relieved suddenly comes back tenfold plus more pain you didn't already have before. :( Don't worry I wont be turning to addiction any time soon, its too expensive and heroin is one of those drugs that the withdraw is so bad it makes you think twice about ever using it again.

I couldn't sleep last night either. Was up all night and I have to go to work at 1:30am tonight. I got a little sleep today but work is going to really suck since I'll be there from 1:30am to 12:00pm. At least I don't have any pain issues and I do have a nice comfy bed! You need to get a bed doorknob. I hope you can get to your Dr's soon and get some decent pain meds. ((hugs))

Hi doorknob!! I'm sorry for all you are going through, and I can't stand the thought of you sleeping on the floor either.

Have you tried Benadryl for sleep? As for your joint pain, the doctor can give you non-narcotic, anti-inflammatory meds. Some doctors will give you samples, if you can't afford the prescription. Some drug companies will give you aid, if you use their product. Also, Wal-Mart has a whole list of $4.00 prescriptions.

ASK for a donation on the bed. I like the idea of local churches. I know you have had alot on you lately, but be kind to my doorknob friend. Love, MK

Blow up air mattress.

Or one of those self-inflating camping ones.

You need softness for your bones sweetie. Or layers of blankets and quilts.

Sleep is just so important for us beepers, it is critical.

Ugh I am sorry doorknob. Yeah I am not sleeping all that well lately either, too restless.

I sure hope you can get a mattress or something, sleeping on the floor is murder on your joints/back. Watch the Aleve, I've heard it has more side effects than Ibuprofen, when taken in large doses. I take Aleve 2-3x/wk and ususally with Flexeril, which is my favorite muscle relaxer.