I want to cut but I promised two of my friends I would tell them before I did it. I don't want to bother them or tell them. I know they will just make me stop and I REALLY want to just cut. I feel horrible breaking my promise but I don't know how else to get rid of my anger at myself. I need to punish myself. I ate so much today and didn't really study. I am such a piece of shit. I can tell I have sunken into a depression. I have no motivation and all I want to do is sleep. I get angry at myself for this. I can't bomb my finals I have worked so hard all quarter! I just need to be punished.
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