have ya seen the pdoc? cause u said ya *might* be bipolar. sounds like ya might need some help in what direction u need ta go. diagnosis isnt always just about what they call ya but they can help ya ta understand whats goin on & get ya to a better place maybe? jmo

You could be BP or not. The symptoms you describe fall under Anxiety Disorder so get to a pdoc as wildn suggested and get to the bottom of the matter.

Sounds like anxiety disorder. I didn't go to school and 'lived' in the woods during the day when I was about your age. On the news and in the media 'anxiety' doesn't sound so bad, just a little edginess. It's every bit as bad as being bipolar in some cases and can wreck your life tremendously.

Exercise is the best remedy I have and pills. But first exercise. Being in the woods helps. I've molded my life around having a severe anxiety disorder so I'm very isolated except for online.

They used to say I was extremely 'shy' as a kid, but it morphed into so much more than that and my family were really quite mortified and ashamed and that lead to a lot of issues for me.

The fact you want a normal life is promising that maybe your symptoms are letting you think -- I need a life. It comes and goes in severity.

well, you must be somewhat ok with your looks to use a picture of yourself as an avatar. most folks i know who really, really despise their own face would never in a million years use a personal photo.

so there's hope. don't lose hope.

Has anything traumatic happened in your life that has caused this? I would contact a psychiatrist and be open and honest. It is affecting your daily functioning so it needs to be looked at. What are you hiding from, are you so afraid and ashamed of anything, is it fear of judgment or js it that a confidence issue. Sometimes after living life in a mania you think that is yur personality and then on meds you feel exposed, vulnerable and actually feel on stage and really notice and think people are really paying attention to you when actually they are so caught up in their own lives to even consider you but you feel vulnerable, so hence you avoid everyone for fear that they may get to know you if they see you and you feel they would not accept you, because you have not accepted yourself? We are a reflection of how we feel and our behavior displays that. Or else you need some medication to help you cope and some good therapy. Once on medication when the fog lifted I had to take a hard cold look at me, get to know the new me on medication and begin to embrace this person because I am all I have got. I try to keep busy and do for others. I am now volunteering at Hospice and the Cancer center...and we think we have it bad. Sure changes your perspective! It feels so incredible to to help and be
compassionate. Doing for others is the best remedy other than the meds! Big hugs!

Great big hug for you sweetie.... It sounds like you're in a depression right now... I think the best way to start is to work with medical professionals.... Even if it takes a while to make a firm diagnosis symptoms can be treated
Therapy can help a lot with some of what you're describing such as self esteem and isolating....xo

Thanks For All Your Replies

I Think I Might Be Bipolar But Im Not Diagnosed Cause I Dont Like Talking To Strangers In Real Bout How I Feel, So I Always Avoid It, But I've Experienced Manic An Depressive Epiosdes, Bipolar Is Just What Fits The Way I Act An Feel

I Was Bullied At School, Then Moved To Another Where I Was Bullied Again, So I Spent Most Of Mai Time Alone At Home An Then Mai Nan Died Which Might Count As Traumatic Cause Thats Roughly When I Started To Feel Suicide Thoughts An Depression, Round Bout 10 Years Old

I Am Listening To All Your Advice An Im Very Greatful, I Think I Need To Maybe See A Therapist or Doctor An Find Out Whats Wrong, But I Neva Brave Enough To Speak To Anyone

I see you have been given some good advice already now. I can relate as I have some agoraphobia and anxiety and shyness in addition to having bp II. As someone who avoided getting help when I was younger like you I can tell you I really wish I had insisted on help back then. I always wonder now what a difference it could have made in my adult life if I had help back then. I agree that you should see a doctor and be very open and honest and not embarrassed about your symptoms and what you go through. Take the meds if you are prescribed them and then learn about your diagnoses. If you have access to therapy take advantage of it. Don't let this hold you back or miss out on new experiences because of it. Continue to seek help.