I'm really really sorry. I know what you mean. I do it too.

Yep, been there.
Mine happens more in hypo or manic. But, remember, it's part of bipolar. Sometimes you can't help it and friends that know you're a beeper need to also be educated on what is symptom and intended

OMG the relevance, i feel your pain 110%... It's like I have control of when or when not to speak, but when i do i blow it to smithereens. *hugs*

Welcome to the forum CryB.

Another been there. Recently. Sucks like an industrial vacuum. Fear of the fact causes me to isolate way beyond what good emotional health allows.

Learning how to make amends helps me more than anything else I have tried. Even meds don't seem to have the power to curb this gnasty problem. I've been studying how to make amends for a long time, but . . . Still studying. . . It is a HUGE study, but when I can pull it off, it sure feels better than beating myself up for a condition that is beyond my control.

But that is me. . .

Again, welcome to the forum. Hope you find much support here while you find what works for you.

welcome to the forum. I see you are only 16 - are you on meds? Teens are tough for anyone, more so for bipolar. We've all been through it.

Hi and Welcome to the Board..... Yup the teen years can be really tough with raging hormones on top of this disorder... It sux.... Hang on sweetie..... Life will get better and we do have a treatable disorder.... Big hug....xo

I am so sorry you are going through this. You are so bright and ahead of the game in life because you have insight. Like SuncloudJD said hang on. Maybe try and foster some activities that are about good health for yourself like excercise and eating healthy to create a good energy so that it might minimize your peaks and valleys. In any case, keeping good healthy habits and routines can really make you feel good about yourself because you'll be treating yourself well, and be self caring. Stay strong... Peace to you!

Sounds like your medication is not quite at the optimum level. You need to get with your Pdoc and explain to him these "Highs and Lows" that your experiencing and your actions during them. It sounds like your meds may need some tweaking to get to the therapeutic level they should be at.

Take care,
K

I keep my mouth shut. I know I'm not thinking clearly and there is sadness mixed in with anger and I don't know which end is up. So I keep quiet with my own thoughts,