Thank you everyone, for your kind words. I just got off of the phone with him... So much for starting fresh. He was being a total PRICK. I don't understand it. I love him so much. He is just so judgmental and pissy and curses at me all of the time. He doesn't trust a damn thing I say, it's like I'm still 15. He just can't get the hell over it. I'm so SICK OF IT. You'd think, after he almost died, that he'd want to be closer to me and realize I'm the only person in the world who loves him that much. His family thinks he's a dick (which he is) and my grandmother can't stand him. I treat him like gold and he keeps shitting all over me. It pissed me off SO BAD. Why can't he just love me unconditionally like a normal father would? Nothing I do is good enough. Not only is it not good enough, he has to braid me about it CONSTANTLY!!! I'm so pissed off right now, IDK what to do with myself.

GAAHHHHH.

To top it off, my friend and I were supposed to hang out sometime this week and every time I talked to him he said, "I don't like making plans." So fucking what? I guess you don't want to hang out that bad. He was the one who asked to hang out!!

I just woke up from a nap and have done nothing but get pissed off. And to think I woke up in a good mood this morning. So much for that.