Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
so basically im in a right pickle with life at the minute
am i manic or am i just being a normal youngster ? ?
i'm making risky dangerous impulsive decisions, they could end disastrously but they never do because ive got it in my head that everything must go smoothly for ME because i am ME.
i meet up with random blokes offline in cities miles away at midnight, go back to their place and basically fuck for hours.
i dont like to admit that i do this its not safe its unclean its whoreish.
i just do it though i dont know why i think its a good idea at the time, im lying to my mum to get out the door and do something else that could possibly end in disaster. this bloke could have been a rapist, a murderer a freakish creep who knows i could have climbed into anyones car, a gun a knife. a coffin for me.
then ive spend all of my savings. they've just disappeared. i have no money i've got a holiday in literally days and no money to go with i booked this holiday in a state of pure euphoria and its just so unrealistic.
i've had so many nights out indulging in risky damaging behaviour lately, drugtaking drinking casual sex money spending lack of sleep.
i have exams in a could of days.
i havent even done any work because ive been too busy fucking everything up.
i dont have a doctor. im not officially diagnosed. im only on anti-depressants and my mum isn't aware ive been gonig this crazy because ive lied through my teeth at every lilypad.
WHAT M I GOING TO DO im going to fail. i care so much ive got too much to loose but i'm writing this now knowing its good im aware.
but it wont last long. i'll be out in a few hours. sniffin coke and fucking up things some more.
am i manic or am i just being a normal youngster ? ?
i'm making risky dangerous impulsive decisions, they could end disastrously but they never do because ive got it in my head that everything must go smoothly for ME because i am ME.
i meet up with random blokes offline in cities miles away at midnight, go back to their place and basically fuck for hours.
i dont like to admit that i do this its not safe its unclean its whoreish.
i just do it though i dont know why i think its a good idea at the time, im lying to my mum to get out the door and do something else that could possibly end in disaster. this bloke could have been a rapist, a murderer a freakish creep who knows i could have climbed into anyones car, a gun a knife. a coffin for me.
then ive spend all of my savings. they've just disappeared. i have no money i've got a holiday in literally days and no money to go with i booked this holiday in a state of pure euphoria and its just so unrealistic.
i've had so many nights out indulging in risky damaging behaviour lately, drugtaking drinking casual sex money spending lack of sleep.
i have exams in a could of days.
i havent even done any work because ive been too busy fucking everything up.
i dont have a doctor. im not officially diagnosed. im only on anti-depressants and my mum isn't aware ive been gonig this crazy because ive lied through my teeth at every lilypad.
WHAT M I GOING TO DO im going to fail. i care so much ive got too much to loose but i'm writing this now knowing its good im aware.
but it wont last long. i'll be out in a few hours. sniffin coke and fucking up things some more.
And the sex stuff reeeeally worries me :(
This is not to say you have bipolar... cocaine is also classic for causing mania in people who are not normally mentally ill. I don't know about the diagnostic criteria over there in GB... but here in the US the manual states that you must have symptoms of mania WITHOUT drug use to really know if it bipolar or not. You gotta figure out which came first, the chicken or the egg... the drugs or the mania (and risky behaviour). Did the drugs cause the risky behaviour or the risky behaviour caused the drug taking...
My suggestion would be to visit a clinic where you can remain anonymous to get some help with all of it. There are many "dual-diagnosis" clinics who treat both drug abuse and possible mental illness. Whether you have a mental illness or not, they offer excellent therapy to help you get to the bottom of the root of the behaviour and work through the emotions there.
Try not to diagnose yourself or look ahead into possible outcomes.... see the professionals and let them help you. You might be surprised at how beautiful life can be with a little help. Also, there are options for students who might have troubles to get medical help, then finish studies when they are doing better without being marked down for it.
Best of luck and (((hugs)))
i think you could be manic. that antidepressant alone w/o and antipsychotic could be making things so much worse!
can you get a doctor with a brain to see what is going on.
you got some classically manic stuff happenin.
i'm worried!
i think you need an anti-psychotic.
You may be able to take your exams at a later time if you have a medical reason for missing them, and psychiatric emergencies count. Can you talk to your dean?
if you simply can't stop doing this stuff you really got ta get help, i'm worried.
x please!
the drugs are a result i think of my risky behaviour.
ive done this stuff before.
i just taken it a step further and a step more serious.
its not good i know i need to stop everything and get help but i simply cant skip the exams i've entered and payed for them i've got a resit to take and i've resat exams in the past for mental health problems i.e a destructive depression :/ x
Symptoms
Bipolar disorder symptoms are characterized by an alternating pattern of emotional highs (mania) and lows (depression). The intensity of signs and symptoms can vary from mild to severe. There may even be periods when your life doesn't seem affected at all.
Bipolar disorder symptoms reflect a range of moods.Bipolar disorder symptoms reflect a range of moods.
Manic phase of bipolar disorder
Signs and symptoms of the manic phase of bipolar disorder may include:
* Euphoria
* Extreme optimism
* Inflated self-esteem
* Poor judgment
* Rapid speech
* Racing thoughts
* Aggressive behavior
* Agitation
* Increased physical activity
* Risky behavior
* Spending sprees
* Increased drive to perform or achieve goals
* Increased sexual drive
* Decreased need for sleep
* Tendency to be easily distracted
* Inability to concentrate
* Drug abuse
Depressive phase of bipolar disorder
Signs and symptoms of the depressive phase of bipolar disorder may include:
* Sadness
* Hopelessness
* Suicidal thoughts or behavior
* Anxiety
* Guilt
* Sleep problems
* Appetite problems
* Fatigue
* Loss of interest in daily activities
* Problems concentrating
* Irritability
* Chronic pain without a known cause
Types of bipolar disorder
Bipolar disorder is divided into two main subtypes:
* Bipolar I disorder. You've had at least one manic episode, with or without previous episodes of depression.
* Bipolar II disorder. You've had at least one episode of depression and at least one hypomanic episode. A hypomanic episode is similar to a manic episode but much briefer, lasting only a few days, and not as severe. With hypomania, you may have an elevated mood, irritability and some changes in your functioning, but generally you can carry on with your normal daily routine and functioning, and you don't require hospitalization. In bipolar II disorder, the periods of depression are typically much longer than the periods of hypomania.
* Cyclothymia. Cyclothymia is a mild form of bipolar disorder. Cyclothymia includes mood swings but the highs and lows are not as severe as those of full-blown bipolar disorder.
Other bipolar disorder symptoms
In addition, some people with bipolar disorder have rapid cycling bipolar disorder. This is the occurrence of four or more mood swings within 12 months. These moods shifts can occur rapidly, sometimes within just hours. In mixed state bipolar disorder, symptoms of both mania and depression occur at the same time.
Severe episodes of either mania or depression may result in psychosis, or a detachment from reality. Symptoms of psychosis may include hearing or seeing things that aren't there (hallucinations) and false but strongly held beliefs (delusions).
This is not ment to be a diagnostic tool.However if you feel you have some of these symptons bring up the subject with your physicain.
You deff seem to be following in the path of mania .
Youthful behavior is one thing, it's the over the top behaviors you are listing that is the tell tale sign of mania
And NOTE..when we are manic , we seldom see it in ourselves, it takes friends ( like on DS) to point it out to you
take care
Listen to us and you might well just save your life!
((((((((Hugs))))))
you are off and running.. i found a killer.. i think he was. buddy had all of his stuff lined up in his hotel bathroom like he was mr american psycho and he came at me with a pillow clenched in both hands.. what would have happened had i not freaked out, who knows.. but it was dangerous and a lesson i will never forget..
you got me worried..
anti depressants are only going to aggravate the issue.. find a doc, get a decent mood stabilizer.
mush, i dont think you are an addict.. and if you are.. you are trying to self medicate.
ADs can royally fuck a BP with no mood stabilizer, trust me, been there.. please get a doc a proper dx and some right meds..