You've been hanging out here awhile - what do you think?

I'm mean we are the Pro's the real deal - you do read I shit I think, or maybe just the marching band? LOL

sorry - you DO READ OUR SHIT - in other words other peoples threads -

I know you read! And cut and paste quick my friend!

but maybe im just bilolar. i could have fixed it this way is more fun. i think that is a clue to my diagnosis. i need to study this. i had sciatica for almost 3months. just starting my walking routine( taking forever to get back to normal after hep c treatment for 48wks. cant talk about it, still makes me break out) after three yrs since treatment. when i sobered up almost 8yrs ago i was exercising and felt the best i had since i was a kid. 32yrs before i started drinking. that would b about 15yrs old. after treatment finished( 3 yrs ago) its been really hard to get back to that point in my life. even happy and sober i still had some seasonal depression but not like the last 3yrs. to where depression is a way too big part of my existence. life became a chore. im on this earth to b happy and try to make others happy too.

i havent been here for a while. over brutalizing them on W&T. i took a comment somebody here one day as meaning that i was off topic. and so was what i was trying to say. so ive been away from this board

kinda felt like i didnt belong. i wanted to say something and expand on my point and show that it did matter. but didnt want to upset anyone. i have to constantly remind myself that im not diagnosed and i cant put myself in somebody elses shoes. and i should mind my Ps and Qs on this board. its different than W&T where i figure i can say most anything i want and jan will tell me when i go too far

on W&T i got reported for abusive language. my post was " am i fucking old or what" as i play ed a fucking bobby vinton song

color me confused

my bud jan straightened their butts (clean version) out. im just not allowed to tell folks to fuck off. say ill kill u. DS frowns on hatred toward their members. i even read the rules of the road one fine day, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4-bD0ZG5_2w

yea, there are "board police" what is sad about that, as they forget they don't know what they are thinking - but they KNOW how everyone is taking your words wrong... LOL

My big target is when I share "what worked for me...." I get slams, Gina your tough love is not appreciated, Gina only on hug Crisis, Gina no one thinks your funny...

So the self proclaimed understander's - seem fit to make active, talktive people - feel they don't belong. We need to remember Any support group is a group of sick people and not take someone with a small mind's insults - as representing the whole board!

LOL we have members that come back every six months to get rid of people, then POOF! IF you want to shake things up, at least fucking hang out! But no - they know what's best for the board and mallay begins : )

You are totally welcome, that your music irks me is totally acceptable too! : )

Depression wins with bipolar

They know how to stop a manic - the 18 months of sadness? might take FOREVER to get a med that helps 32%

So thinking hi to low is part of the dx - let me tell you, not so much : )

Plus - saying your bipolar or not, does not change what color your shirt is your wearing : ) Dx - give a direction for coping skills and possible chemical relief : )

the walking routine is finally starting to pay dividends. but its kinda like i get happy and take it to the utmost extreme? and ya wonder when the other shoe will drop and i get sick again or depressed. im curious if thats what is meant by "training". i havent studied this near enough. but i value the people heres opinion more than i ever would a doctor. and u volunteer your services. and i miss going wildman on this board. even though my youtubes drive gina nuts. sorry sweetie

No worries!

I think if you think it's fun then you are probably not bipolar.

Our suicide rate is more than 10-20 times that of the rest of the population (which includes the depressives).

If you have not seriously fucked your life more than several times, nearly managed to kill yourself several times either deliberately or accidently then I think you can conclude you are probably not bipolar. That would be based on having wild ideas, major risk taking and probably running up and down a airport runway naked claiming you are a new low cost airline.

If you are bipolar and having way too much fun then be prepared to have your life completely destroyed on the down turn.

Either way I suggest you get a psychiatrists opinion now..

btw I saw what happened on W&T, it is a very small group of mostly long term members with it's own unique character - I don't think you should take not feeling that you don't belong there as an indication of anything in particular.

how can frank sinatra and bunch of kids singing "high hopes" irk anyone. just to play the devils advocate here gina. i would suggest maybe, possibly, one chance in a million i could b the irky one