i said i felt like i didnt belong on this board

and "ouch". i think maybe it was u fish that made the comment because i just got that dont belong feeling again from u

idk what u thought i meant about anything being fun. thanks for your opinion. u dont think im bipolar at all. cool. i dont have a therapist so im just seeking a small amount of help from people on here.

u think maybe shooting heroin at the age of 19 and losing everything counts as fucking your life up? u think drinking for the next 32yrs and destroying my marriage and fucking my kids up is fucking your life up?

i was saying i had realised i needed to b more careful on this board. im mr curious too. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9pigK31G4y0

people please tell me if im not welcome here

#10 gina your always welcome to share with me. to me its kinda the whole point of everything? nobody wants advice, nobody wants to b told what to do. sharing what we have is really all we got? am i wrong?

I mentioned fun because I was quoting you? "i could have fixed it this way is more fun."

I'd suggest you get a psychiatrist's opinion because at the end of the day that is the only way to move forward. If you are bipolar then you almost certainly will require medication or you are a danger to yourself and possibly others.

Certainly addiction as a way of self medicating is the way some bipolar people try to deal. Problem is that when people are using then everything tends to get ascribed to that and the bipolar that is driving it overlooked.

You seem coherent so that would be another reason why I would tend to think you are not truely "manic" but then some people can appear rational when they are in fact quite unwell.

You might find the list of symptoms below as helpful. I've picked the ones that I think tend to be only in bipolar and ones that are distinctive. You will find tests online that ask "do you sometimes feel happy and sometimes sad for no particular reason?" to which most people say yes and it tells them they are bipolar which is nonesense.

These symptoms would need to last for days, weeks or months..


talking very quicklly and jumping form one subject to another so that others cannot understand you

being unable to sleep at night due to mental chatter and ideas

having lots of ideas, importantant plans and starting multiple projects or ventures which in retrospect seem unreasonable.

being delusional, as in thinking you are being watched by the CIA, you are Jesus Christ

having hallucinations and not realising at the time that they were not real

doing things that often have disastrous consequences, such as spending large sums of money on expensive and sometimes unaffordable items, sexual exploits, physically taking risks - which are out of character.

hope that helps

thanks fish. lets see. yes, yes, yes, no, no, yes. years, years, years, never, only on acid, and yes but i wouldnt say its out of character

i was talking about fixing my mispelling of the word bipolar. it was just funny to me that i misspelled it. but was it a freudian slip? and i was making fun of bipolar people? cant answer that question. i really appreciate your input fish. anything or anyone that helps me learn about me and others is good for me. this time i fixed it. spelled it wrong again. whats it mean when u misspell a word twice in a row when u know how to spell it and youve spelled it a hundred times?

Ok, I'm BACK! Please lets disagree!!! I am tired of crying - I've been disappointed, abandon, and insulted - before I got on the board and got the same thing! LMAO - not now, but before....

First point - Music and Youtube my friend - I Can't and don't - click on LINKS! What I love arguing with the few brave : ) is I'm not the only one!!!! Now, before you do the - its Frank! People don't tell you Frank, and my computer buffers, stops and starts and I've had three virus removed in my "online" career. YES! I have good antivirus : )

2. Fish was funny just then and smart! You are WAY TOO SENSITIVE!!! or paranoid - which I can't discuss, thank god I'm NOT....

Let's tango - this is our board, anyone that wants to share, cry, laugh, vent, disagree... that we should be politcally correct, well sign of the times.... There are more Good people here, then bad - just like real life.

Leave Fish alone! He is awesome, funny and sometimes are calm one. Everything he said to you was cool! Go read it with a smile, and see if you can see is dry humor and wisdom!!!

LMAO - being heavy in volunteer shit with mental illness - I have learned in LARGE groups of bipolar so many Naked stories... One of the best trainers a beautiful tall black woman - her story is, president of a company - pulls car over at rush hour on the highway, gets out takes of her clothes - runs naked.

LMAO - that is the beginning of her Bipolar story, life, meds, coping skills and giving back...

Momma Gina would like to suggest since your good people, and fish is good people - maybe you should TRY and apologize or cut a fart, joke, something POSITIVE!!!!!

LOL Wish I could find a link of me wagging my finger at Beav...

How red was I??????


Ooops, you did good young man!!!!!

LOL

dr. Copperhead, I think you're bi-curious.

as in bi-polar curious.

you need a magic unicorn for a pet to help you decide.

Ducking up your life with drugs and alcohol is not bipolar. It is addiction. you can be comorbid tho. another bi for you.

anyone is welcome on this board, as long as they behave. No hypermanic overly insulting or threatening behavior. There are some awesome, diverse and sometimes delicate members here.

Gina, I'm all this and that and more some days!

I'm glad Dr C is back and Gina too.

all are welcome here!

Cheers!

the frank comment was a joke. i thought i was being nice to fish at the end. i thanked him for his input. i found it helpful. freud says the things we dont like about other people might b attributes we ourselves share? i try to consider that in my thinking. i learned in AA that just because you dont like someone doesnt mean u cant learn from them. i believe that. i learned in drug and alcohol out patient class that everyone is doing the best they can at the time. i try to keep that in mind. i love everyone, but i learned in AA that its not the person i dislike its the behavior. i also believe that. and my Higher Power gives me the right to walk away from that persons behavior. ive done that. this is directed at no one here. what whats on my mind

yea, I have some of the 12 step thing going on -

In a support group, the old timer is Who Got up the earliest that day.... the group is That moments contributors, not the past or who we wish.

If you look at the time stamp and my embarrassment - you were cool, and I was late! and wrong, of course : ).