Big hug for you sweetie..... If it's gone on for a while maybe a med tweak is in order?

I can get pretty flat at times as well.... These are times when I really use gratitude as a tool.... I think of 5 things to be grateful for everyday and believe it or not it helps.... xo

It really isn't the goal to be numb. Stability yes, numb, not so much. Usually when you're at that point it doesn't mean you have to switch a bunch of meds or stop meds, often dosages may just need tweaking. Remember these are pharmacologic compounds that are working with the chemicals in your brain to even things out, that can take some "adjusting" to get it to a point where your pretty stable but are still able to enjoy normal activities and hobbies.

Sometimes Journaling can help boost your mood, as SunCloud said when you make yourself think of the actual things in your life that you have to be grateful for, it can stimulate those feel good feelings; writing down grateful thoughts each day or affirmations can help lift your mood. You can also do things to increase your bodies natural endorphins "feel good chemicals" and get your mood going in the right direction....

10 Ways to Naturally Increase Endorphins:

Sniff some vanilla or lavender
Take a little ginseng
Take a group exercise class
Seek out daily laughter
Eat Chocolate (the higher Cacao % the better)
Having an orgasm
Go outside in the Sun for a Vitamin D boost
Spicy food containing peppers
Touch - massage or acupuncture
Conscious Controlled Deep Breathing

Sometimes we think, "okay i'm taking these meds, now my moods will get better" but often there's work that we each have to do with the meds to get things in the place we want them to be.

Take care.

anti- depressants. they can numb you, thats how some work, i found that unacceptable in my life.life without feelings has no meaning to me. it got to the point here none would work . there is one that does but i cant take it because it really gets me going, and i'm a insomniac so i would have trouble with it amping me up. that one is called Wellbutrin , good stuff. i now take a anti-psychotic- works good, doesnt mess with how you feel things, justs helps in how you think. its a anti-brain fart med. you know., your thinking gets messed up, its like what was i thinking? kind of thing, anti- psychotics help clear out these brain farts, get you thinking better, less agitated, more calm , and it does not impair you. i take Seroquel . its great on anxiety, can calm you enough to sleep. wont impair your feelings or inhibit your mental capabilities.

Is there something else going on in your life that is bringing you down? I find whenever something is upsetting me deep Down I don't laugh... I dont cry... I just don't feel anything besides melancholy. Dig deep. Try and figure it out. That's the first step and then work on solutions.

thanks everybody for the support and advice. i do think my meds will need adjusting. thankfully i have an appt next week. i hope i can improve my coping skills while the meds dont do the job,

@lettgobreathe there are other things stressing me out like trying to graduate this year and apply to schools this winter. but its not exactly the stress thats bothering me, its the lack of happiness. maybe i can figure out the school stuff and see if it helps

Mljn. Schools? You must be s senior in hs? That was a very stressful time for me too. Most of senior year I was seriously depressed. And that was before my dx and meds came into the picture. Chin up. It does get better. Also I agree that a med tweak may be in order. Keeep is posted

I’m actually a senior in undergrad in college. But yeah. Idk it does get me down thinking about grad school. I just doubt myself in being able to succeed since it will be much harder and my mental health doesn’t help.