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just dont give a damn anymore....

kittycat72d
kittycat72d
I just dont give a damn anymore. Nobody seems to care. I am reaching out for help and nobody cares or wants to help it seems. I have been trying but am getting nowhere fast it seems. I am gettting down to my last wire here I cant take it anymore. My own family could give a damn if I am alive or dead it seems. They dont call or check up to see how I am doing NOTHING.... Fuck them them. I reached out to my pastor of my church and have been trying to get in touch with him for 2 weeks now and he did respand but said he would get right back to me and never did. I have sent him serval messges even to call my via cell phone and nothing grrrr PEOPLE SUCK.... I know people have their own things to deal with and everyday life but when someone is in a crisis you try to help them out I would think or maybe I am wrong. I just dont know I guess I will be alone the rest of my life then. Nobody seems to care or want to help. I know God helps them who want to help themse,ves well I am wanting to help myslef but nobody wants to help me though. Life fucking sucks right now and I dont see it getting any better anytime soon. Ok bye for now as I go cry for a bit now...
kittycat72d
kittycat72d
oh and when someone says they are feeling suicidal to nobody cares or anything comeon now............ what is this world coming to..
arfie
arfie
When my beloved son talks like this, I don't call him either. I have zero evidence that I can do anything to help him through it and letting him verbally assault me in the name of telling me my mind is immensely painful. It helps no one while it hurts everyone.

I pray for him constantly while I await his return. His struggle is not mine to work out. I care, but I hold no delusions of control over his adult life and I reserve the right to self protection.

Crying is good at times like this. Crying is a shower for the soul. Hope ya come out less sucky than the rest of us.
tats69
tats69
We unfortunately live in a very self absorbed world!!

So sorry you are feeling this way but you are not alone....and yes alot of people do suck....I totally agree but not everyone...smile

I hope coming here helps you vent some and well just helps in general, lots of caring people here...**hugs**
maddiesgrammie
maddiesgrammie
I JUST SENT YOU A P.M.MADDIE.
kittycat72d
kittycat72d
sorry for swearing but i am in a pissy moood. People dont care. My dad acts like I dont exisist most of the time and dont even ask how I am doing,do I need anything NOTHING. Now I live with him downstairs in the basemant with my brother and he dont even call me ask me if I am ok need to talk nothing nope. I just dont get it I really dont. I dontknow where to turn or what to do anymore. sorry again if i offended anyone for swearing but please understand I am not in my right mind right now and not in a good mood. thanks...
deleted_user
deleted_user
I feel the way you do today. I am sorry we go through this.

I have decided that if one more thing goes wrong I am going to become a missing persons.

Good luck to you and yours. (hugs)
kittycat72d
kittycat72d
I just cant take it anymore. I am at my wits end here. I need help and nobody wants to help me. I am severely depressed and at times suicicdial and nobody even cares. I am not talking about people on here I am talking about people in my life like family. They just plain dont care. They go about there day and there businaess and act like I am not even around. Dont ask if I want to goout or go to the store or anything. Or ask if I am ok even I just cant stand it anymore. Why I ask Why. I pray to God all the time and get no answers it seems. I just dont know what to do or where to go.
deleted_user
deleted_user
laugh and the world laughs with you, weep and you weep alone - yeah I know where you're coming from, put up a similar post a few days ago

but sometimes when you're depressed you don't see things for how they really are, you don't see people caring about you but maybe having nothing to say because they don't understand, and are afraid they'll say the wrong thing

I used this place to find my strength and give a damn about myself
kittycat72d
kittycat72d
I am trying but it is a tough tough road to climb up when your down you cant get up sometimes it is very hard.
deleted_user
deleted_user
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vMn0Qr9jtyI
deleted_user
deleted_user
Alot of people are too selfish to care about someone in crisis because their too rapped up in themselves ..... hope you feel better tomorrow .... andrew
deleted_user
deleted_user
Even with seven, count them, 1,2,3,4,5,6,7, supports in place I have had to learn to rely on myself. I thought I had the system working for me and I had accessed all the right people, places and things. I found this site on my own and I will continue to ask for help but realize that I am my own best advocate.

You have to find out what works for you....continue to post, journal, research, ask questions, ask again if you have to....just don't let up on your search....It is o.k. to get tired, pissed, feel like giving up or feel like nobody cares. It is o.k. to have these emotions. It is not o.k. to stop trying
deleted_user
deleted_user
or maybe they're not selfish, they could feel just as fucking bad as you do, and they don't have it in them, so they'd rather just focus on surviving.



there's my $1.00's worth.


you can blame people automatically for not caring, or start caring about yourself, and actually not give a damn.
deleted_user
deleted_user
for instance, if i ignore a ranting suicidal ideation post, and am making jokes elsewhere on other posts or answering trivial off topic questions, it might just be because if i try to dig that deep for someone else at that moment, it will drag me down further into a place i know i'm not capable of going.

so i'm not gonna be guilted by anyone on here or in life anymore.
i've seen this theme being touched on, on DS and in real life and i'm kinda done with it. i have to survive. i'm sick of saying sorry too.

sometimes i just can't reach out and don't have it in ME. and i'm not going to apologize for that. it's just the way it is.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Well Hang in there. I know it feels like this right now, but they have their reasons. Maybe you are uapproacheable right now? Maybe they see a lot of anger and would rather not touch you with a ten foot pole. There could be many reasons. But relying on man and not God will get you nowhere every time. Pray to God for guidance and mercy. Ask and ye shall receive.
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