Got nothing but hugs and love for ya Chelle - words escape me right now but know that you aren't alone here with the shit in your head trust me darlin

It's driving me nutty!! It won't stop.

Sometimes looking for the answer is more important than finding the answer. I can be a hand to for you to hold and share the good things life has to offer.

Awwwww, Chelle, it just breaks my heart to see you like this. You are such a beautiful person inside and out. I feel for you and can relate so much. I wish I had the right words at this moment. Just know we are all here you for. Much love to you. (((Hugs)))

I can so relate Chelle and massive hugs to you

would taking some extra seroquel calm the thoughts a little?

You are not a bad person even if you are having bad thoughts, I know that when I am feeling the way you are I have to think about some good thing that has happened to me or by me in the past,just one little thing and then build on it. Not an easy task when feeling as blue as you are but I hope you can try. You have always been so very nice and kind,considerate and a good friend to anyone in need. You are a valuable member of DS and society therefore you need to see the good in you because I see it.

Chelle, we love you not to speak of Dillion and Tootie and your husband. What we do without you? You wake us up every morning and cheer us all on. You are one in a million. I'm feeling pretty freakin fucked myself right now but it will pass I know and you know that we are survivers we have been thru this shit before we have families that love us. Hang in there Scorpio you are a tough cookie and I love you.

no no no... you need doc and quick! please chelle. find some support, dont do anything. your children would be scarred forever!!!

find help!!! i am praying for you, God is there and your life is important!

My Seroquel is at the drug store waiting to be picked up. Ain't going after it now. Think I will just lay down and try to sleep for a while and hopefully feel better and be better when I wake up.

Thank all of you for your kind words. I do not deserve them. I am scum!!

chelle, oh no, I am so sorry this is happening to you. You are a caring and wonderful person Chelle, you just need a med adjustment love, please. If I could physically hold your hand right now, I would. You are going to get through this - especially for your kids who you LOVE so much, chelle. You are not a bad person, you are amazing and full of love. No one here wants to see you suffering like this. Please get a hold of your doctor today. Don't let the weekend come, chelle,without having talked to your doc. I'm begging. ((hugs))

Chelle, I'm so sorry for what you are going through today. You are not scum. You always cheer me up with your positive posts. Know that you are loved.

I have just put in a call to my t. She is going to get a message to my pdoc and he will call me later. Love you guys.

Hey sweetie,

I am so sorry you are feeling crummy. If you can get that Seroquel sooner, I think it would help.

I think we can all relate to the haywire brain. During the last few days my brain has been doing weird crap too.

Hopefully, you can get into your tdoc soon. I find it so helpful when we can spill what is going on in our heads to our therapists or shrinks.

Hugs

aw sweetie, you arent scum.

you are wonderful. you cheer people up, you are genuinely interested in others. you have a warm heart and caring soul.

Chelle!!! If I'd known you were the poster of this topic I'd'a clicked on it earlier. That's kinda rude to everyone else I guess but dang it whatever I'm here now to tell you that there are some things getting clouded by these thoughts, it's hard to see through such a mind set - BUT THE TRUTH IS YOU ARE AWESOME, LOVEABLE (to a crazy degree), AND THIS TOO SHALL PASS.

We need you here, you're family needs you, and YOU need you.

You're not scum, you're not anything that any other human being is. A rut is easy to get lost in but lordy I hope the meds and the talking and the posting hoists your right outta this slump.

Your brain, though frustrating at time, does FAR MORE good than bad and luckily your body follows with behavior which makes you an all around great person!!!

We love you dearly and hope things clear up and get figured out asap. Keep us updated and please please don't get too far into the sea of suicidal thinking.

xOxLOVExOx