chelle, you are not scum, you are a wonderful, caring person, we need you here, you always say just the right thing to cheer people on, i know right now it is impossible to see yourself that way, but it is the truth, your brain is messing with you, i wish, like so many others, that i could be there with you rihgt now to hold your hand and tell you that i love you and you will be ok

Chelle, I know that you have been through some rough times lately. I am so sorry for your pain. But you really don't want to die. You want the pain to end. There is a difference. I'm glad to hear that you've talked to your t and will be talking to your pdoc. As someone who has been left behind after a parent couldn't take it any longer, please, stay with us and your children.

Hey there ZanyBeeper,
I am really sorry your going though so much, (safe hugs) I really hope things do get better for you dear, Maybe you should go back to your DR and talk to him/her about what your feeling maybe they can change your meds to help you, You need to ask for help dear and I really hope you get the help that you really need, Plzz dont do anything to your self plz try and keep fighting things can only get better. I hope your ok?
Jade

Hey guys. I took a nap. Woke up to the doctor on the phone. He increased my Seroquel to a whole in the morning as well as at night. Gonna try that and see if it helps. He also wants me to come back in next week to follow up with my pnurse. She is awesome too. I thank all of you for your support and love. Don't know what I would do without you. Much love!!

You are one of the most respected and forthright people on this board. I always look to see if you have posted something.

I have been on the boards since 2007. Back then I was really depressed and someone here told me "It will pass" I never thought it would and I thought the advice was stupid, but it did pass. And I was glad I waited.

So for you, "It will pass".

I am sure there are many many many of us out here who love you dearly and are giving you prayers and hugs, and I am one of them.
AF

Chelle, I'm so sorry you are in a dark place. Your kids need you to live, so dying isn't an option, but I think you know that in your heart of hearts.

I wish your symptoms would stop and that you would get some relief.
Big hugs xxxx

I'm so sorry you are hurting. You know I love you!!! So does God. I will pray for you.

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HI! I am sorry to hear that you are having a rough time of it right now.
I would like you to know that I do alot more of these messages than I used to because your postings are real good and trusting.
Please don't do anything that you would regret later.
Keep positive and remember that this might just be a bump in the road that we all travel down.
Take Care.
ttfn AnnieEm

Chelle sorry to here you are in a dark place, I too am in there to and it is not a fun place to be. I wish I had something positive for you to say, just hold on girl

Well...honey last night I thought I was gonna go crazy. My mind was speeding 100mph...and I couldn't go to sleep. finally...I did around 2am. And my Fiance' woke me up at 7 up and ready to greet the day. I gave him a dirty look and said get up and get out of the room. I;m sleeping.....lol

I thank you ALL for all of this love and support. I am truly blown away by so much love. I am feeling a little better. Not wanting to die atm. Yay for that!! Thanks again. I love and hold you all dearly to my heart. xox