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I would have posted this in jealousy group but...

sirk
sirk

There seems to be no life in that support group here on DS, so Im going to drop it here. Since many of you help me so much in this group and I almost always get a response-


This may be related to my bipolar or maybe not.


But.


Do any of you expierence furious fits of jealousy? Maybe in a manic episode?


Just going to go into a little more deets here: I am dog sitting my uncles dog right now while hes in Europe, and I bring my boyfriend over to his house with me most of the time when we have to let him out and feed him. Now, I am an AVID animal lover and would never harm one. But, when my boyfriend is giving the dog more attention than me, and just acting like the dog is like a GOD, I suddenly feel like I wanna fucking kick it across the room. 


THIS IS CRAZY!! I KNOW, BELIEVE ME.


This also used to happen when we had a cat (which I gave to my bf's mom) because 1. It used to claw everything in my house and I felt it was too cruel to declaw him and 2. Because I used to get jealous that my bf would greet the cat before me when he came in from work.


I am insane and I know this is a serious thing that I should probably be in therapy for, (which I am currently searching for a new one) but do you think this is related to my bipolar? or is this me being a crazy jealous irrational bitch?


sorry for the offensive language...


thoughts?


Carolin57
Carolin57
Did you mention this to the boyfriend? He may need a kick up the arse. Also you may be insecure and need to talk things out with a therapist just to get a professional take on it. I am bi polar and was a bit weird during mania although many things I never really got jealous. Angry, and insecure yes and at the same time invincible such is the crazy nature of this condition.
sirk
sirk
Carolin57 i am EXTREMELY insecure and I hate admitting that outloud. But I also am a jealous person and dont know how to deal with it. I am also a very ANGRY person. I should be on meds, thats half the problem, but im trying to take the natural medicine approach (routine, healthy eating, exercise)
But i fear its not enough.
Its hard to pin point what is related to bipolar and what isnt sometimes. Agh, at least I have you guys <3 thanks
Carolin57
Carolin57
Sirk being insecure sucks. As a younger woman I was very insecure and would spend hours questions what I said and what I heard. It could be that you do need some medication, I don't say this lightly. I had four spells in hospital just cos I would not take what was prescribed. I now take meds and have learned that a full and pretty stable life is achievable. My moods now are a bit boring but at least not extreme.
sirk
sirk
ah, but part of me likes being extreme (with mania ) makes me life of the party, i have a lot of friends because of who i am and my personality , some friends whom tell me they probably wouldn't love me as much if I were normal lol (they mean that in the nicest way possible, im sure lol ) but when I am perscribed things I do not take them as well. And if I do take them, I forget to take them and skip doses and fuck up the stability of the medication. So i made the decision to stay off them, until I learn to be more responsible, because as you know, taking them and going off screws you up even more.
Carolin57
Carolin57
Yes I fully understand I loved the quirky side of mania, the invincibility of it all. So if you have decided to stay off the meds. Try to be as healthy as possible. there is a natural medicine called 5-HTP it can help a little with anxiety so might be worth looking into that.
sirk
sirk
yes I have used 5HPT and only helped for about 1 -2 weeks last time I've used it. However, I may have needed a higher dose because I think my body got used to the same dosage quickly. I did see improvement. I do have to head out and buy more! Thanks Carolin xo
MusicLoveFaith
MusicLoveFaith
I don't experience much envy in my life, because I am in a positive place right now. I know that whatever is meant to be for my life, will happen. I have a strong sense of faith and a belief in God, and know that whatever opportunities are meant to arise in my life, will certainly occur.
sirk
sirk
Thats great Music, I am happy for you. I was raised catholic but do not practice any religion now that I am older because I am not a believer in God. But that's my personal preference and beliefs.
I admire those who have faith and belief and have some solid morals to live by. Because me, well, I don't really live by any.
I hope to change that one day.
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
No I've never had a problem with jealousy..... Why don't you want to take meds when you struggle with severe anger?... I wouldn't get a pet if I were you until you've dealt with it... This doesn't 'seem' to me to be about bipolar however you aren't in either therapy or on meds so it may be partly that... Not sure... big hug....xo
Community Leaderacuriousfish
acuriousfish
hi, there is a jealousy board but it's kinda academic because it's not active.

https://www.dailystrength.org/group/jealousy
sirk
sirk
acuriousfish... as i stated, it's not active that's why I didn't post this there lol

SunCloud,
I agree, I would NEVER hurt an animal ever. Never have, never will. But I only get like this when my boyfriend shows an animal that I dont have a bond with affection. It is indeed a problem.
And I dont go on meds because I alwayssssssssssss go on and then off and on and off and it fucks me off more. I cant ever get a pdoc that seems like they don't know what they are doing. Ive explained my reasonings before.
Its hard for me with them, and hard for me without.
Ugh. pray for me lol
sirk
sirk
fucks me up*
irishwriter
irishwriter
It doesn't seem all that crazy but it does seem insecure which could be one of the symptoms of bipolar. set an alarm on your phone to take your meds which are clearly needed. meds should not affect your personality just stabilise your moods and if that bothers your friends then they are not very good friends! we could even post a reminder here daily to take your meds if you'd like. i hope you manage to find a good pdoc because therapy is essential along with diet, exercise etc. the best of luck with it and let us know how you get on. hugs.
sirk
sirk
Irish-
my insecurities are enough to swallow me whole. Def plan on getting back into therapy ASAP.

Meds haven't changed my personality when I do take them, you are right, but I don't feel, how do I put it, ..Sharp. Like I do when I'm just not on anything.
I have tried alarms but then when they go off I find myself forgetting anyway, it never helped me and I only stay consistent for about 2 weeks and then fuck my dosage up.
I also have never been on an ACTUAL bipolar medicine before. I always say upon every new pdco appointment "I DONT WANT TO GAIN WEIGHT"
So then I think that's why the doctors just go the other approach and prescribe me meds that are "used" for mood disorders but are beta blockers, SSRI'S, anticonvulsants etc.- that don't have the weight gain side effects.
Regardless, Im on the fence right now, and not in treatment at all.
I start my new job monday I think its smart that I fix this with myself soon.
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