well it was in highschool when i got my first diagnosis as bipolar. I had some ups and downs and some self injury along the way but after highschool i seemed to get better? maybe it was all in my head but I wasnt having as many episodes n all. Now current day courtney is happily married with a boy on the way. This morning i was hallucinating and i could sware there was someone in my house, i clearly heard footsteps and someone eating chips behind me. i called my husband to see if he was home early, he asked me hun are you okay? i told him i feel paranoid and i was freaking out. after checking out my house and seeing everything is still in place, I returned to my room and tv but thats when i saw the reflection from my closet. I saw a man in my closet he s been there all day. I was able to give my husband a description. I looked at it long enough when the relfection turned his head to look at me. I had the thought of cutting, i was so terrified i was going to die today i figured well i should end it myself and not give the man in my closet the satisfaction. I am to humiliatied to go to the ER and try and convince them there s a man hiding in my closet, I know my husband wont come home cause all that will be in the closet when he looks, is all my shoe rack and makeup :-( i have lost my mind today, just felt like sharing maybe my crazed moment can bring laughter into someone's day!