Religious ascetics used to go live in caves to get away from people. They're known as hermits. People can be pretty sucky and if some of them bother us we can stay away from them. However, we should try to live in a healthy way and associate with people who don't bother us, at least once in awhile. I think the only evil we have to be concerned with is that which we experience and that which we visit on others. We can control ourselves very well, other people not so much so don't despair, just take care of yourself.

Thank you tommymott, I appreciate the response. I think I am getting sicker and am not thinking well.

I know what you mean..I hate being aware of everything. It always makes me feel like walking on egg shells.
Sometimes id rather be a baby cause I wouldnt have to care.

I have felt like you and have found a solution that works for me.

I decided not to care about things that I can do nothing about.

It has helped me an awful lot. When they trot out the next atrocity for me to worry about, I just tune it out. What is the point of me getting all upset when I can do nothing to change it.

I know it has made me harder and less caring. It has saved me a lot of anguish though and my mental health has been more stable.

Forgot to add that I am really sorry to hear you have had such a difficult life with horrible experiences. You do sound like a nice person.

I think the world can be a beautiful place... if we didn't screw it up so much :P

I think the mentally ill wouldn't be plagued so harshly if there wasn't so much to be concerned about.

I used to be highly interested in politics until I realized how frustrating and uncaring-of-the-people they can be... Like dark said, I had to just stop caring and tune it out.

I don't have TV. We illegally download any shows we want to watch... No commercials, no news... It's nice :) I screen my phone calls like a mad woman. If a friend calls, or family, if I'm not 100 percent okay with talking to them at that moment due to whatever random shit my brain is throwing at me... I just call 'em back later.

I'd like to think the human race will wake up from the greed one day... but I'm pretty sure I won't live to see it.

If I think in logical and realistic terms... *shakes head....*

That's why it's so good to be a little crazy... it's the only place any of my optimism can come from.

I can totally understand what you mean. Sometimes I think that I should never be let out of my cage.

Not caring about things I can do nothing about....

That would mean that I stop caring about my need for a live-in lover taking care of me. I have been unable to find such a person in 30 years of searching. There is no avenue I haven't explored in this quest.

Should I really stop caring about what I need, just because I can do nothing about it?

I'm confused, are you having trouble with your caregiver? If so, that sounds really problematic. You should be able to get along with someone so close to you that you see all the time. But maybe I'm just missing the point.

It sounds like depression heretic.. are you slipping sweetie.. I don't know about isolating it all.. I disassociate now way to much... and it's from what you are describing... I basically am in my own little world now I suppose much of the time and now I have to try and find a way out... So I really don't think that's the answer as much as it sounds good.. my last pdoc told me if I don't work on this I'll end up in an institution...big hug and a blessing for you..xo

i feel as if i am inside your head...or you are inside of mine. i am isolating from as much of the world as i can, but it still leaks in, and i hate every minute of it.

Yes, SunCloud, I do suffer from depression and have for almost 50 years. But even when I am manic I still feel the same way.

Interacting with anyone is painful. I am always aware that I am not anyone's first priority and the pain of that is overwhelming.

I have been to dozens of therapists, and am finally on meds that work. But meds only do what they are designed to do - they do not provide LOVE - which is what I need much more than meds.

my problem is i do isolate really bad. I wish i didnt sometimes. Thank goodness for the internet. Hang in there.

Zsa - I don't HAVE a caregiver - THAT is the problem. I need one (obviously) but the universe doesn't care. I have to go without the care I need. This makes dealing with the sick things I see all around me even harder.

I want to live in a bubble too.